Me, though? It’s not that I don’t think I deserve it. It’s more that I believe people can find happiness in all types of things. That you don’t need a person to feel fulfilled in life.
Some people’s hearts lie in the hands of somebody else. Mine belongs to music.
I never considered myself a woman who needed love from another person to determine my happiness.
I’m good with it,or without it. I’ve just never met anybody who made me want it badly enough.
But with these new rings on my finger, the whole world will know that I have a thing for bad boys, and that I’ve just voluntarily given my heart away to one for him to keep.
Because I might have a thing for my new husband.
Are these feelings floating around in my body purely a physical attraction? Or am I attracted to his kindness, too?
With adrenaline running through me, as far as I’m concerned, Avery can do whatever he wants, as long as he praises me afterwards.
I’d probably even thank him for it.
"I think we can get in one more drink before we need to head to the airport. I have work tomorrow," Lizzie reminds me.
My chest squeezes. I hate being away from them, but this is the life I chose. I need to remember the tour won’t last forever. That these moments on the road will come to an end, and I’ll miss it one day.
"Unfortunately, kindergartners don’t know what a break means." Her shoulders sag, defeat washing over her expression.
She loves her job, but she’s always so exhausted when she gets home after spending hours and hours with a bunch of five-year-old kids. Now she comes home to an empty apartment and nobody to help her unwind.
Grangewood Creek is my home. It’s where I’m safe, where I’m comfortable. But if I want to pursue this career—one that’s pulling me forward whether I’m ready or not—I need to be anywherebut.It kills me more every day.
"I’m heading back to Grangewood, too. Harley is working himself to the bone, so I’m going to keep Cass and Willow company for a couple of days." Jenna’s smile at me is apologetic. Even though we both know she’s going to support my big sister, she also knows I’m struggling with the distance more than I let on.
But it’s a consequence of the life I chose.
I nod. "Of course. I think I’m done with drinking for the next year, so you guys go ahead."
I give Jenna’s arm a quick squeeze in thanks for not blurting out what she figured out on her own, then let her go.
We’re all going our separate ways, but I’ll see them soon.
I have to for my sanity, at the very least.
"You ready to get out of here?" Avery whispers in my ear, his lips grazing my skin ever so slightly.
For a moment, I forget that my family is leaving.
I forget that this is all fake and allow myself to just believe it.
Because it feels nice to have somebody be here forme.Somebody who knows the darkest, most hidden parts of my soul, and he’s still here.
Still wanting to take me home.
Still wanting to make sure I’m cared for.
And it feels so nice.
"Let’s go."
"Are you okay?"
Do I have tears in my eyes that haven’t completely fallen down my cheeks?
