I went back inside. The party had gotten louder while I was on the porch—more people, more noise, more of the specific chaos that happened when a bunch of athletes decided Saturday night was for forgetting. Someone had started a flip cup tournament in the dining room.
I found the vodka bottle on the kitchen counter and took big two swigs.
My phone kept buzzing in my pocket.
Liam
Alex
Liam
Answer me
Liam
Please just tell me you're ok
I pulled it out. The screen was too bright. My fingers felt thick and slow on the glass.
Alex
I'm okya
Alex
Just need to think. Cant think around you.
Liam
You're scaring me. you don't drink like this
Alex
You dint know what I do
Alex
Maybe thas the problem. You think you know me but you don't know what it costs me to hold all of this together
Liam
Me?
Alex
Yuo're the most expensive thing in my life. And I cant even afford you.
Liam
what does that mean?
Alex
I'm tired. It means everything is broke. I can't fix it. I cant fix the texts.. I can't fix the photo I can't fix me. Something is wrong.
Liam
Alex stop. where exactly are you. what's the address
