“It’s so stupid.”
“You know when you can’t have someone…”
“Yeah, yeah. I know. But I can’t even focus on my classes. I failed a test today.”
Trish almost choked on her wine. “What?” She sputtered.
“Yep. I studied too. I made flash cards, quizzed myself, and thought I knew the material. I start the quiz and bam, my mind is blank and I’m imagining Gunner naked and fucking me on the bar.”
Now Trishactuallychoked on her wine. She coughed and laughed at the same time as I sucked down my wine, hoping maybe it would help. Ha, fat chance. “On the bar? Can you imagine Grizz’s face if he caught you?”
My cheeks flamed red.“No.Are you crazy?”
“I was just about to ask you the same thing.”
“I feel like I am.” I finished my glass and grabbed the bottle, pouring myself another hearty portion.
“Slow down there, killer. You don’t want an even worse night.” Trish said as she eyed my glass while I sucked more down.
“I need to figure this out. I’m hoping wine helps.”
“Ha. Wine never helps. You’ll end up calling him and asking him to come fuck you just to get it out of your system.”
A spark ran through me.Wait, a minute…
Trish placed a hand on my arm. “Rae, hold on. I see that gleam in your eye. I was only kidding.”
“You might be on to something.”
“No, trust me. I’mnot.It will make everything worse. Believe me. Remember Scott?”
I chuckled. “Yes. But you said it was the best sex of your life.”
“At thetime.Now, I’ve had better. And if I could go back in time, I wouldn’t do it again.”
“I know, I know. You had to quit. But I think I could do it. I could get him out of my damn mind and move on.”
“You know sex fucks shit up. You will grow even more attached. You’re not one to have sex without feelings.”
“Stop talking like you’re my best friend or something. What else do you suggest I do? I can’t lose my job, I can’t quit my job, but I can’t keep staring at this gorgeous man and picture him doing me up against a wall.”
“Maybe you should find someone else to fuck while fantasizing about Gunner.”
I looked at her as if she’d grown two heads. “And deal with two men inside my head? Hell no!”
“Okay, then here’s my solid advice. Use some of your vacation time. I know you have plenty banked and take a few days to yourself. Use it to study and forget about this guy for a while. When you go back, you will have forgotten all about your crush.”
I mulled over her words. It wasn’t a bad idea, but I wasn’t sure it would work. Because I’ve never felt like this around anyone before. Not any previous boyfriends or crushes. There was something about Gunner I felt deep in my soul.
And I wasn’t so sure a break would do the trick.
He’d still be there, looking as fine as ever.
Instead of a week,I requested a long weekend off and didn’t leave my apartment once, besides sitting on the back deck for some fresh air.
I studied and made up my failed test, caught up on work, and even got ahead in a few classes.
Yet not once did Gunner leave my head.
