Page 19 of Until I Shatter


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He’s hurt.

The sight of his blood, dark and real under the white lights shatters the last of my detachment. He is not a concept, he is not a force of nature. He is flesh and bone, and he is bleeding.

Cassian looks up, and the change in him is terrifying. The analytical calm in his eyes is gone. It’s been replaced by something else, something flat, dead, and utterly merciless. It’s the same emptiness I saw in his eyes at the bar, just before he threatened the drunk. The switch has been flipped, the man is gone. The Wraith is here.

He stops evading.

He moves forward. The Minotaur, his nose a bloody ruin, throws a wild punch. Cassian ducks under it and drives his fist forward, not into the man’s face, but into his knee. The joint buckles with a sound like a branch snapping. The giant howls and stumbles, his leg giving way.

The fight is no longer a ballet. It’s a dissection.

Cassian moves with a brutal, terrifying efficiency. He’s not trying to knock the man out. He’s taking him apart, piece by piece. A sharp kick to the back of the other knee. A series of precise, punishing blows to the ribs he’d targeted earlier. An elbow to the side of the head that sends the giant staggering, his eyes glassy.

The crowd is a single, bloodthirsty beast, screaming for the kill. They are roaring his name. “Wraith! Wraith! Wraith!”

I am screaming with them, but my scream is silent, trapped in my throat. I am no longer watching a fight, I am watching an execution. It’s the most horrific thing I have ever seen, and it is beautiful. The terrible, undeniable beauty of perfect control, of absolute power, of a creature so perfectly suited to its purpose. He is a storm, a scalpel. He is the answer to the chaos that destroyed my life. Cassian is not a victim of violence. He is the violence.

The Minotaur is on his knees now, barely conscious, his massive body trembling. He is broken. Cassian stands over him, his chest rising and falling in ragged breaths, his own face bruised, a cut bleeding freely over his eye, his blood mingling with his opponent’s. The crowd is begging him to finish it. To deliver the final, devastating blow.

Cassian looks down at the broken man at his feet. He raises his fist. The crowd holds its breath.

Then, he lowers it.

The deadness in his eyes recedes. The man comes back. He looks at the pathetic, beaten figure, and there is something like pity in his gaze. He turns his back on the Minotaur and walks to the center of the ring, raising a hand not in triumph, but in a gesture that simply says,It is done.

The announcer rushes in, grabbing his hand and holding it high. “Your winner, and STILL the undefeated champion… THE WRAITH!”

The roar of the crowd is absolute, a physical force that shakes the entire warehouse, but Cassian doesn’t seem to hear it. He ignores the announcer, ignores the men trying to slap his back.

Cassian’s head comes up. His chest is heaving, his body is a canvas of bruises and blood. His green eyes, blazing with pain, adrenaline and exhaustion scan the crowd. They pass over the screaming faces, the grasping hands, searching.

Then they find me.

His gaze locks onto mine from across the cavernous space. The roar of the crowd fades to a dull, distant hum. The heat, the smell, the people—it all disappears. There is only him, standing broken and victorious in the center of the ring, and me, standing in the shadows, holding his life in my hands.

He doesn’t smile he doesn’t gloat. He just looks at me, a raw, desperate, questioning look. His eyes are asking the realquestion. Not“Did I win?”but“Did you see? Did you finally see what I am? Are you still here?”

My heart is a wild, frantic drum against my ribs. My throat is raw from a scream I never uttered. I can’t speak, I can’t move. I can only stand there, caught in his gaze, the world spinning around me.

Slowly, almost involuntarily I give a single, tiny nod.

It’s an answer. It’s an admission. It’s a confession.

Yes. I see, and I’m still here.

Thirteen

Aria

Mynodisinfinitesimal,a barely-there movement in the thundering chaos of the warehouse, but he sees it.

Across the vast, seething space, I see the tension in his shoulders release. It’s not a grand gesture, just a subtle lowering. A deep, ragged breath that seems to be the first one he’s taken since the fight began. The desperate, questioning fire in his eyes softens for a fraction of a second, replaced by a flicker of something I can’t name.Relief? Triumph?It’s gone beforeI can capture it. The mask of the Wraith, of the untouchable champion, slips back into place.

He turns his back on me then, and on the adulation of the crowd. He speaks a few short, sharp words to the announcer, who immediately starts shooing people out of the ring. Cassian ignores the hands trying to congratulate him, the sycophants trying to catch his eye. He slips through the ropes, drops to the floor, and starts moving.

He moves through the crowd like a shark through a current, a singular, focused purpose in his stride. The sea of bodies parts for him, a mixture of fear and reverence clearing his path. He is their champion, their king, but he is not one of them. He is something other.

I remain frozen on the catwalk, my heart frantic against my ribs. The heavy leather jacket is still clutched in my hands. Cassian is coming. He is coming for me. The thought sends another jolt through my system, a cocktail of terror and a strange, thrilling sense of inevitability.