His mouth works magic, the experience fresh and new, as everything with Jason seems to be. He knows his way around my body. I never knew my breasts were sensitive, never realized I could come from oral sex. But as he slides his tongue inside me, his nose nudging my clit, waves of sensation and awareness shudder through me. Warm and delicious, my body responds to his intense ministrations, the way he delicately plays with my clit causing me to buck against him.
He must realize he’s hit the right spot, because he pulls the tight bud into his mouth and grazes it with his teeth. A swell ofdesire takes hold and doesn’t let go as he brings me up and over the edge.
I’ve been grasping the comforter, hanging on as he eats at me, but with the surge of desire, I need to hold on to him. I grasp his hand as I grind my sex against his mouth, riding out the most explosive climax I’ve ever had.
Before I can fully finish, he comes over me, nudging my legs apart and pushing himself deep.
“Oh, God, Jason!” I quiver around him, my inner walls clasping him harder. “I’m coming again.”
“Damn right you are,” he mutters and slams into me, grinding his hips against me.
I whimper at the assault, his body rough with mine in all the best possible ways. My gaze on his as I come, I fall into those dark blue eyes, losing myself in this man who has all but sworn he will never truly be mine.
Pushing those thoughts aside, I let my body enjoy the peak and slow tumble back to reality, coming to with his big body on top of mine. With a grunt, he rolls to his side, pulling out of me, and I feel the loss in more ways than physical.
He presses a long kiss on my lips. “Be right back,” he says and rises to walk into the bathroom. I hear the water run, and he returns, helping me clean up before pulling me back into his arms.
We doze for a while, and when I wake up, he’s staring into my eyes. “Thank you,” he says in a gruff voice.
“For what?”
“Letting me take what I needed. Giving me more than I deserve.”
I lay my head in the crook of his shoulder. “You carry a lot of pain inside you. It’s good to let it out.”
He merely grunts in reply.
“I have a question,” I say, having realized earlier that this is the one thing he hasn’t addressed.
His arm pulls me tighter against him. “What’s that?”
Drawing a deep breath, I ask, “Who’s the woman and the little boy in the picture on your desk?”
He exhales slowly. “When Levi died, he had a girlfriend, Amber. He didn’t know it at the time, but he’d gotten her pregnant.”
“Oh, God.”
I feel him nod. “Yeah.”
“In the beginning, there wasn’t much the guys and I could do but be there for her, but after the club started bringing in money, we helped her out. LJ, that’s his name, Levi Jr., means a lot to all of us.”
“That’s so sad,” I whisper, unable to imagine how difficult the woman’s life has been. A single mother, still in college…
“She doesn’t live in the city, so we don’t see them nearly as much as we’d like, but the relationship is strong.”
And LJ is the child he already has, I realize, my heart pounding hard in my chest at the thought. These men and the bond they share with each other, and with Amber and her son, give Jason all the family he believes he needs.
We lay in silence, each lost in our own thoughts. After today, I understand Jason more than ever. I’ve never felt so close to him… and he’s never felt further out of reach.
***
Jason
The next morning,I wake up before Faith. Last night, we stayed up late, ordered in pizza, and… dammit, I can’t call it having sex. I made love to her.
After the hard, punishing way I took her the first time, we fell asleep again, and then I found myself sliding into her slowly. Rocking against her as she woke up to me pumping in and out of her, our gazes locked on each other, emotions passing between us. Despite my vow to remain detached, I haven’t been able to do it. Not with this woman who is burrowing her way deep inside me.
Not that it changes anything. When her problems are solved, she’ll go back to her life and I’ll return to mine. Solitary and safe, the way I like it. I have no choice. I don’t see myself opening up enough for marriage and a family, and that’s what Faith wants. What she deserves.
