And I’d never tried any butt stuff.
I wanted to point at the simple vibrator, but I remembered the way Mal’s eyes had lit up when he’d pulled out the rabbit.
And wasn’t this about pushing myself?
“The rabbit.”
“Oooh! Good choice.” He quickly tossed the rest of the items back into the bag and set the bag on the floor. Leaving the rabbit in the center of the bed.
The bright purple plastic was loud on the white sheets.
“Oh! Batteries!” Mal sat on the edge of the bed while he dug back into the bag for batteries and efficiently loaded them into the toy. “Your friend really did think of everything. Remind me to send her flowers.”
I nodded mutely. I just knew my eyes were embarrassingly huge and scared.
Mostly because I was kinda scared.
This was so intimidating. Why did I ever think I could keep up with someone like Mal? He’d seen and done more than I could even imagine. Literally. I didn’t even know what some of those things in the bag were for.
And how sad was that?
No. I needed to stop talking myself out of this.
I could do this.
I wanted to do this.
I heard a click, followed by a whirr, and Mal’s giggle.
“Fuck yeah!” he hollered.
Oh god.
Mal looked up at me, and the grin fell off his face. “Okay. You looked freaked again. How about we forget the rabbit for now and just kiss?”
“No!” I all but shouted. Wincing, I continued at a normal decibel, “I mean, I want to do this. Play with you. I just…”
“You really don’t have a poker face, baby.” He wrapped his arms around my waist and buried his face in my boobs. His voice was muffled when he spoke again, “How about this? We’ll work our way up to the rabbit. Fool around a little first. Maybe even fuck first,thenI’ll finish you with the toy.”
“But…what’s the point after? I mean, I thought it was about foreplay.”
“Just because we fuck, doesn’t mean we’ll finish at the same time. You ever heard of edging?”
I shook my head.
“Remember how last time you kept almost getting there again and again but never coming? And how, when you did, it felt like your body was going to explode?”
“You did that on purpose? I thought you just didn’t know how close I was.”
“Oh I knew. It was so fucking hot.” He nipped playfully at my top. “Sex doesn’t have to be wham bam straight to orgasm, ma’am, then roll over and fall asleep. It should be about having fun. Exploring. Letting go.”
The tone of his voice and that hungry look in his eyes had my whole body thrumming and swaying toward him. Almost like I was under a vampire’s thrall. He could ask for anything right now, and I’d probably do it for him.Anything.
“Come here, baby.” He nudged my hips, pulling me toward him. “Climb onto my lap.”
Heat flashed through my bloodstream when he called me baby. Why was that so hot?
I obeyed, climbing into his lap until both knees rested on the bed on either side of his hips. His arms supported my back, and I tried not to think about how my skirt was splayed, leaving absolutely nothing to the imagination. My blue lacy panties had to be the only thing he was seeing.
