Page 44 of Kiss Me First


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Harlow blinks. “Thanks?”

Weston groans. “It’s Monday. Why are we doing homework already?”

Asher ignores him and sets the folder down. “We’re watching film in twenty.”

Kai clears his throat. “We can do it quickly.”

Harlow shifts, eyes flicking between all of us. “I can go?—”

Kai starts to say no, too fast, then stops himself.

He exhales, recalibrates.

“You can stay if you want,” Kai says instead. “Or you can hang in my room. Your choice.”

Harlow studies him for a beat, then nods once. “I’ll stay.”

She takes a seat on the far end of the couch, right on the edge, not in the middle, and I sit in the chair across from them, pretending I don’t notice the way she chooses distance.

Asher cues up the laptop. Film starts. Clips roll. Mistakes replay, like I can’t already unsee them in my mind. Coach Graves’ voice lives in the back of our heads like a threat. Weston chirps at the screen, Asher points out positioning, Kai grunts approval or disapproval. I try to focus, but every once in a while, my eyes flick to Harlow without my permission.

She’s watching, too, and not just the screen. She’s watchingus. Learning rhythm. Learning the rules. Trying to understand the world her brother lives in. Her hands are folded in her lap, fingers worrying at the edge of her sweater. Her foot taps lightly, like she’s using movement to keep herself grounded. My chest tightens in that slow, uncomfortable way that says I recognize it, because I do the same thing when my brain won’t shut up.

When film ends, Weston sprawls across the couch like he survived something tragic. “I’m being bullied by my own past mistakes.”

Asher doesn’t look up. “Good.”

Kai stands. “I’m hungry.”

Weston sits up. “Bagels!”

Kai shoots him a look. “Those were Harlow’s.”

Harlow lifts her brows. “They’re for everyone.”

Kai’s jaw tightens like he hates when she gives things away—like he wants to keep her offerings safe and controlled. Harlow meets his stare, unflinching. Kai looks away first.

Weston reaches for a bagel. “Thank you.”

Harlow nods like that’s acceptable and pulls out her phone, looking down at the screen and typing.

For a second, the apartment feels…normal. Like this could be a real family. A weird one, a loud one, but still.

My phone buzzes in my pocket.

Forum notification.

I don’t check it. Not in front of anyone, but the knowledge sits heavy in my pocket like a secret.

Harlow shifts on the couch, and her gaze flicks toward me, like she sensed the change.

Probably nothing.

I stand. “I’m gonna take the trash out.”

Weston’s grin turns dangerous. “He’s going to message his?—”

“Don’t,” I snap.