“Don’t ever scare me like that again, James,” he said. “Not if you can help it.”
James smiled warmly at him. “I’ll try not to.”
“I’m not forbidding you from being sad, of course, and if you need laudanum sometime in the future, I’ll let you have it, but...” He trailed off.
James could tell that he was starting to become choked up again.
“I know what you mean, Cassian,” James said softly.
Cassian cleared his throat.
“I was being sincere when I said that I wanted to be your lifeboat. I know I’m... complaining about it currently—rightfully so, in my opinion, since being that for you was far from easy, especially because I had no idea whether you’d ever come out of that state that you were in—but, regardless, Iwillkeep being it.”
Warmth spread through James’s chest, making his heart stutter. James smiled at Cassian, and Cassian smiled back.
“I love you, Cassian.”
“I love you, too, James.”
Cassian rolled onto his side, and James lay next to him. Then the two began to kiss. James poured everything he had into it. Every bit of love and affection and gratitude. And Cassian seemed to relish it, letting out the most wonderful whimpers and moans and hums as their lips moved together. After a while, James encouraged Cassian onto his back.
“Let me pleasure you,” he murmured.
Cassian’s brow creased, and he stared into James’s eyes as though searching them.
“Please,” James begged.
After only a brief pause, Cassian nodded. James began to kiss a path to Cassian’s waiting cock. Along the way, he stopped to lick Cassian’s stomach and hummed hungrily as the taste of saltysweat tickled his tongue. Once he reached Cassian’s member, he flicked a light lick across the head before pulling the foreskin back with his hand. Cassian hitched a breath. Smiling to himself, James pumped his fist twice, coaxing forth a bit of pre-ejaculate, which he then lapped up with his tongue. Finally, James took the whole of Cassian’s length into his mouth. Moaning, Cassian threaded his fingers through James’s hair.
“Stay like this,” he breathed, holding James’s head in place for a couple of long, wonderful seconds while he thrust upward a few times.
James held perfectly still, happy to be of service. Once Cassian stopped thrusting, James began to move again, bobbing slowly while massaging Cassian’s shaft with his tongue. Just as James was finding a rhythm, Cassian’s hand fisted his hair, stopping him.
“On your knees,” he said.
Immediately, James scrambled off the bed and moved onto his knees. Cassian stood, and his hand found the back of James’s head. He positioned his cock near James’s mouth.
“Open,” he commanded.
James complied. Cassian held him steady as he moved his hips forward, pushing the length of his prick into James’s mouth. James only barely suppressed a gag. Cassian pulled himself halfway out and paused.
“Are you ready for me?” he asked.
James nodded a little. Cassian’s lips curled into a wicked smile.
Still fisting James’s hair, Cassian began to move his hips, fucking James’s mouth, his movements careful but purposeful. Surprisingly, James managed to move past his urge to gag rather quickly, though his eyes still became a bit watery from the thrusting, and soon, he started to take pleasure in everything too. His own cock stiffened fully as Cassian continued to move his hips. A fewdeliberate thrusts later, Cassian stopped and pulled out. He pinched one of James’s cheeks.
“Did you like that?” he asked.
“Yes,” James said on an exhale, staring up at Cassian through his lashes, spit coating his chin.
Cassian smiled wolfishly. Oh, fuck, how James loved it.
“Good,” Cassian purred. He took his cock in his hand and moved the head toward James’s lips. “You can continue what you were doing before.”
And, oh, James knew that it wasnota request.
Immediately, James resumed pleasuring him. Cassian stroked James’s cheek sweetly with the back of his hand as James moved his head back and forth, back and forth. Feeling Cassian caressing his face like that, James suddenly wanted Cassian to stroke him elsewhere, too. He loved pampering Cassian, but, oh, hell, he needed to orgasm with him.
