Dirty boy if you’re still trying to convince yourself you don’t have a kink maybe take a second to count how many times in the past few days you’ve jerked off while reading my texts from the weekend
I bet you need more than one hand
Fuck, I hate how he always seems to just know shit like this. My knee-jerk instinct is to deny it, but I quickly realize how ridiculous that would be. I’ve already admitted I want more calls and texts—what would be the point in hiding from this now?
Me
So?
Jazz Grimsay
Damn dirty boy, are you saying those texts seem vanilla to you? I need to up my game
I let out a grunt of frustration. That wasn’t what I meant to imply, but does that mean Jazz is right? Now I really don’t know what to think. Fuck, I can’t believe I started this conversation with a sense of clarity…
Me
That’s not what I meant. Stop trying to catch me out. I feel like I’m being backed into a corner
My phone starts buzzing with an incoming call and after a brief moment of hesitation I answer.
“That’s the exact opposite of what I’m trying to do,” Jazz says, his voice so uncharacteristically serious I feel the need to check the caller ID to confirm it’s him.
“Huh?”
“I’m not trying to manipulate you,” he continues. “Andthis isn’t some epic challenge I’ve set myself whereby your capitulation earns me ultimate victory. I think we could have a lot of fun together once you actually accept what you want but if that doesn’t end up happening, c’est la vie—we’ll just forget about it and move on.”
I frown in consternation, completely thrown by the unfamiliar gravity in his words. “This is weird. I can’t talk to you like this.”
“On the phone?”
“Sounding all serious and shit. It’s weird,” I tell him. “Can you stop freaking me out and justbe you?”
“I sound serious because this is serious,” he says matter-of-factly. “But if it helps I’ll try to throw in some witty banter and comments about your dick.”
I let out a wry breath of laughter. “Thank you.” I put the phone on speaker and finally get back to making my sandwich.
“Why did you decide you wanted texts and calls?” he asks.
“Because I was going fucking crazy,” I grumble. “I feel like a freakin’ addict going through withdrawals—which I’m assuming is what you intended to happen.”
He curses under his breath, then adopts that serious tone again. “No, I definitely didn’t intend for that to happen. As amazing as I am, I’m not all-powerful, all-knowing. Like I already said, I’m not trying to manipulate you. My intention was to give you space to figure things out. I wasn’t trying to force your hand.”
“Well, I have figured things out,” I remind him.
“No, you’re horny,” he states baldly. “And you want me to supply fresh material for your spank bank without you having to think too hard about why it turns you on.”
I let out a grunt of aggravation, setting the top slice of bread on my sandwich with more force than is probably needed. “I just don’t get what the big deal is. Youdidn’t make me jump through any hoops over the weekend. It was actually the opposite—I couldn’t fucking get rid of you.”
“Well, I doubt you’d have believed you get off on being debased and mocked unless I actually proved it to you,” he drawls.
I open my mouth to protest but quickly close it because, well, how the hell else should I describe jerking off to texts calling me a whore?
Notingmy silence, Jazz lets out a soft laugh. “Exactly. Last weekend you were confrontingwhatturns you on. And it sounds as though your current state of horniness is clouding your memory a little so let me refresh it—it was hard freakin’ work. I mean,fuck, you’re a stubborn bastard,” he says with a light chuckle. “But that’s all part of the fun, I guess. And now that you’re doing okay with the what you can start trying to wrap your head around the why. Hardly surprising you’re being just as stubborn there…”
I let out an exasperated huff. “If you know I’m so stubborn why would you think I’d make a good submissive?”
He’s quiet for a long moment before saying, “What does being stubborn have to do with anything? I think you’d make a good submissive because you get turned on from being dominated.”
