I fucked Theo’s throat, thrusting my hips into his mouth, watching his eyes roll back in ecstasy. I couldn’t hold on anymore. I wanted to savor it more, but my arousal was uncontrollable, and I released hot ropes of cum into Theo’s mouth. He opened up, catching every last drop on his lips and tongue, using my cock to smear the release on his lips.
His eyes met mine, and he looked at me adoringly.
“I love you, Theo.”
“What?”
The man’s voice ripped me away from my fantasy. I looked down to see his outline clearly looking up at me. “Nothing,” I said.
I cleaned up the best I could with my hand and put myself away, zipping up my pants in earnest.
“Your cock is amazing,” the man said. The compliment should have made me feel good, but all I wanted to do was get out of there. “Do you want…?” I let the question linger, hoping to God he didn’t want reciprocation.
“Nah, I’m good. I just wanted to suck some cock tonight.”
Good.“Thank you,” I said with zero affect in my voice. It was cold, clinical. Ameans to an end.
I walked past him and picked up speed as I reached the clearing. Once I recognized shadows in the forest signaling I was close to campus, I started running. I ran as fast as my legs could carry me before finally emptying onto the campus lawn that bordered the path.
I found a bench on the path and sat down. I always hated that part. The moment right after the hookup made me feel even more empty than I already was. Shame and sadness consumed me as I lowered my head. A light shimmered directly above, illuminating the dark stains the tears made on the cobblestones. I hated it. I hated that I did that. It was so stupid, not to mention fucking dangerous. Who knew what kind of animal went to that place!
You. You’re the kind of animal that goes to that place.
This wasn’t supposed to be my life. I wasn’t supposed to be hiding in the shadows, ashamed of myself. I wasn’t supposed to be lusting over a straight man, and I wasn’t supposed to be in the closet.
So, why am I?
The urge to get up and go to my room was palpable, but I knew it would just upset me. Abigail had left with Theo, so, unless something happened on the way back to our dorm, I’d come back to a fucking sock on the doorknob. It was supposed to be funny, but all it did was make the already broken pieces of my heart crumble to dust.
I lay down across the bench, holding myself with my arms. There was no respite. I was trapped at school and trapped at home. I had no one to hold me. The one person who was supposed to love me more than anyone hated me. The best friend I ever had would leave if he knew how much I really loved him. I was so happy no one was awake to witness mysobbing. It was humiliating.
I wasn’t crying because I got off in the forest. I was crying because I wanted to be held. I just wanted someone to hold me.
The tears were unstoppable. A deluge that soaked my cheeks, pooling onto the bench and pouring to the ground below.
“I hate being me.”
Theo
“Do you like doggy?” Abigail asked.
FUCK YEAH, I DO!
My frantic nodding was the only cue she needed. She lifted herself off me and got on all fours while I rose to my knees. I lined my cock to her opening and slid back in.
Our slapping bodies and moans of pleasure filled the room. I looked down at her beautiful back, her pale skin peppered with freckles. That hair flowing in beautiful red waves. I was going to come soon. I reached around and began fingering her clit again, hoping we’d come at the same time.
“Oh fuck, Theo! Don’t stop!”
My thrusting grew harder and faster. Fuck, it was so hot. I could tell she was going to come soon from her rapid moaning. I couldn’t hold back anymore. I closed my eyes as the pleasure welled in the root of my dick and traveled up my shaft.
Cum shot out of me and into the condom as I screamed, “ASHER!”
WHAT?!
FUCK!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!
