Not now. Not . . .
NowI’mshakingmyhead. And I’m crying. For heaven’s snakes and hell’s, too—I told myself I was done crying over Simon Snow.
He holds a hand out to me, and what am I supposed to do, not take it? He reels me in close. “I’m sorry,” he says.
“Stop.” I’m still crying.
“Agatha, I—”
“Simon, I beg you, please don’t choosenowto start talking about your feelings.”
The door to the exam room opens. We both look up—Niamh is stepping out.
“Niamh!” Simon says. “Don’t go. Please.”
“I can give you a moment.” She frowns at us. (That might just be her face; she’s trying to be kind, I think.)
“No,” he says. “I don’t want to lose my nerve.”
“Fat chance of that,” Niamh says. “I’ve seen you in action.”
“Oh?” Simon looks like he’s trying to place her.
“I was at Watford, a few years ahead of you.” She glances at me, as if to say,You, too.“You saved my life once.”
“That’s everyone at Watford,” I say. “And in the whole World of Mages.”
“True enough,” she agrees. She smiles tightly at Simon.
“Please,” he says. “I’m all right.”
Niamh frowns at us more intently, then steps back into the room. She motions towards his wing. “Shall I?”
“Yeah. Just ignore my jumping around, I can’t help it.”
She picks up the iodine and starts again on the inside of his wing. He shudders, but doesn’t pull away. I hold his hand steady.
“Fascinating,” Niamh says—to herself, I think. “It’s like the inside of a lamb’s ear. Covered in fine hair.”
“You look like hell,” I whisper to Simon.
He smiles. “Thanks.”
“When was the last time you slept?”
“I don’t know. Utah?”
“Are you caught up in some new trouble?”
“No,” he says. “I mean, nothing new.”
“Simon . . .”
“Nearly done,” Niamh says. She must be rushing it. (Which won’t matter at all—she’s just cutting them off. I can’t believe she doesn’t have a spell for this.) She moves to the joint of Simon’s wing, the place where it juts out of his back.
He looks like he wants to crawl out of his skin.
“You’resurethis doesn’t hurt?” I ask.
