Sadie:Don’t get mad. I DID ask you to come inside.
She had asked me, and I should have come inside then come inside of her. But I wanted to have a perfect moment with her, one that wasn’t stained by thoughts of my father.
Parker:And I told you I had a process.
Sadie:Right, for science.
Parker:Yes. I want to see if I can make you come so hard you pass out.
Sadie:Is that…is that a thing or is that just you teasing me?
Parker:I don’t tease.
Sadie:You do tease. You teased tonight.
Sadie:I can tease too.
I held my breath as the next message came in. It was her and the dildo again. The large toy was squeezed between her bare tits. I wished it was my cock. My pants felt uncomfortably tight, and I forced myself to calm down. I blew out a breath. I wanted her, but I wanted to take my time. Also, I didn’t want to freak her out. If I really went over there and fucked her the way I wanted to, Sadie would probably hate me. No, better to take it slow. Besides, I did not want to fuck her in that tiny studio apartment.
The picture taunted me the rest of the night. I was doubly glad I had locked Garrett out of my phone. I did not want him to see that picture of Sadie.
I still didn’t know what to do about my father. A part of me wished it was a bad dream or a prank. But the message was still there in the morning. I was furious that he had to contact me right when Sadie had come into my life.
Finally something good happens for me and my father has to try to ruin it.
32
Sadie
Ihadn’t even lost my virginity, and I was already attached to Parker. But I didn’t think he was attached to me. He had acted weird in the car, and then he hadn’t even wanted to come inside. Then when, after drinking a cup of bourbon, I took a—gulp—topless photo and sent it to him, it was like he didn’t even care. What if he laughed about it with his brothers? What if he posted it all over the internet? Between the bourbon and all the fried food and the fact that every time I closed my eyes, I imagined Parker goingdowntownon me, I barely slept.
I was a wreck when I went into the office the next morning and didn’t see Parker.
Sadie:I think I screwed up.
Jasmine:Unless you actually get screwed, maybe you should be banned from the group chat. That will be motivation.
Sadie:*whines* It wasn’t my fault this time! I let him get to first base? Second base? I was never a sports person. I did invite him inside. And I sent him a naughty picture. No dice.
Erika:Did you take a shower before your date?
Sadie:Of course I did.
Jasmine:Did you eat anything super strong?
Sadie:Fried fish
Jasmine:That’s probably why.
Sadie:So it’s not ruined?
Erika:I’ve seen your boobies. If you sent him a picture of those babies, I bet he bangs you by the end of today.
Sadie:Parker is very self-controlled.
Erika:Fine. End of this week.
I did not admit to my friends that I was attached to Parker. If I thought my virginity problem was big, falling in love with Parker was going to be a problem that would be ginormous, ugly, and messy.
