I put a hand on his arm. He’s going to reopen the gash on his cheek if he’s not careful, and I haven’t even gotten to clean it yet. “What’s chipping?”
“He’s such an embarrassment.”
“Yeah, get that. Just tell me. Girl with the alcohol, remember? If you don’t tell me, I will make you burn.”
A sigh gusts out of his chest as he sinks into the seat, lazily propping one knee against the dash between us, making my knees press against his leg. I absently wonder if he did that on purpose—he’s always closer than I’m comfortable being—but he’s baring his cheek for me now, so I get back to work while he talks.
“Davy jacked up his leg sur ng somewhere he shouldn’t have been sur ng three years ago. He wasn’t watching the weather, and he took a risk. He had two surgeries. When the oxycodone prescriptions ran out, he started buying it from a kid at school. And when that ran out, he started looking for anything else— vodka, coke … but nothing kills the pain quite like opiates. And what’s a better opiate than heroin?”
My hand stills. “Please tell me you’re joking.”
“It’s sur ng’s dirty little secret.”
“Like, shooting up?”
“As far as I know, he smokes it, but I’m not really around when he’s doing it. I’m just going by what I’ve heard, and I’ve never seen any needle marks. ?at really, really stings, Bailey.”
“I’m sorry. You probably need stitches. It’s bleeding a little again.” I push his hair back and see a nasty bump on his temple. He’s lucky that chair didn’t smash any bones in his face. I’m not entirely convinced it didn’t, actually.
He winces. “Keep cleaning it, just be kind. Anyway, ‘chipping’ is something people do when they think they can outsmart heroin. ?ey do just enough to get high for a weekend, or whatever, but don’t allow themselves to have any more until the next weekend—cold turkey all week, so they don’t go through withdrawals. If they aren’t addicted, they’re in charge, right?”
“?at doesn’t sound like it would work so well,” I say.
“It doesn’t. Because there’s always that one holiday weekend that turns into three days, or they’re having a bad week and need to blow off steam on a Wednesday. And before they know it, they’re backsliding, and their conservative plan is busted. ?ey’re lying to themselves, thinking that they’ve got it under control. Like Philip Seymour Hoffman. People say that’s what killed him.”
I’m stunned. I know Wanda said Davy was into serious narcotics, but heroin? ?at sounds like something out of a movie. It doesn’t happen in real life. Not to people my age, anyway. “Does this hurt?” I ask, lightly dabbing antibiotic ointment on his wound. It looks like a crevice in a dry desert, red and angry, cracked open.
“Nothing hurts when you’re touching me,” he says in a faraway voice.
I have to stop myself from smiling because I’m afraid he might open his eyes and catch me. And I don’t want his eyes open, because I can look at him up close now. ?e sharp lift of his cheekbones. ?e way his wild curls, damp with misty rain, are honey where the sun has burnished them, darker beneath. ?e gentle upturn of the outer corners of his eyes, and the prominent jut of his nose.
“Is he going to be okay?” I ask.
“Davy? I really don’t know,” Porter says, sucking in a hard breath as I x a butter y bandage to his cut. ?ree should do it, and that’s all we have, so I guess it will have to. “I’m less worried about him right now, and more worried that you’re sorry you ever gave me your number and will never go out on a date with me, because now you’re thinking all my friends are trash and we really have nothing in common.”
“Is that so?” I peel off the paper backing for the second butter y bandage. “And why do you even like me if we have nothing in common?”
“Well, you’re a knockout, obviously.”
No one’s ever called me this. I feel my chest getting uttery and warm.
“And you laugh at my jokes.”
A laugh bursts out—I can’t help it. ?at’s … so very Porter. It’s self-absorbed and kind of endearing at the same time.
“Don’t get me wrong, you’re pretty witty yourself,” he adds, cracking one eye open.
“Oh, am I? ?at’s awfully generous of you.”
He gives me a sheepish smile, chuckling, and shoves at my hands, because I’m playfully slapping him on the shoulder. “You’re welcome. And, and—listen, now! Oww! I’m injured. Stop laughing, damn you, and listen to me. You have to admit, if you think about it, we get along really, really well when we’re not
ghting.”
Is he right? Do we?
I think we just might.
Porter makes a growling noise. “See, but that’s the other thing. I talk too much when I’m around you. You make me feel way too comfortable, and that drives me bananas.”
