In my mind, in my heart.
Over and over again for the past year.
Maybe I still don’t see them fully or perfectly, even with time, even with hindsight.
But All. I. Want.
Is to see them again.
172.
now
It’s dark, but not full dark.
If I wish, right now, something will happen. It has to.
I close my eyes.
I say a name.
This was always who it was going to be.
173.
now
I’ve been trying to assign the clues to different people. Syd. Sam. Alex. Jack. Ella. I tried to bend them, to make them match up with who I most wanted to come back right then.
I tried to make them fit anyone.
I tried to make them fit everyone.
174.
now
Hello?I say.
But
No one’s here.
They will never be here.
The only person here
is me.
175.
now
I am the one at the jump.
I am the one
who came back.
