I want to keep torturing him—I want to keep making him feel as good as he makesmefeel—but I also want him inside me.
So I give his head one last suck, swirling my tongue over his tip, and then I sit up. “Hold yourself.”
He does as I tell him, fisting his cock in his hand, and I’m able to roll on the condom with one hand.
Then he’s practically lifting me back onto his lap. Taking one nipple in his mouth, then the other, he shapes my waist with his hands. I reach down and find him, lining him up at my entrance.
I look up, and our gazes lock.
It’s suddenly very, very quiet inside the cab. Just our breaths between us.
“Don’t tell him. Colt. About this.” I have no idea why I choose this moment to say that. I guess I’m afraid. And yeah, I like the idea of having something that’s just between us, me and Ryder.
Our own secret.
A story that only we know.
Ryder’s hands knead my sides. His blue eyes are thoughtful. “You think that’s the right call?”
“Yes. No. Is it wrong to say that I don’t care?”
Biting his lip, he lifts his hips so that he sinks the tiniest bit inside me. “Everything about this is wrong.”
I nearly choke at the feel of his thick head entering my cunt. “Maybe that’s why it’s so good.”
“Maybe.”
Putting my hand on his shoulder, I lower myself another inch. Wince at the hard pinch between my legs, even as I feel a renewed flutter of desire in my core.
“You okay?” Ryder’s voice is soft.
I nod. “It’s just…very full this way.”
“Don’t try to be a hero.” He cups my breast. Thumbs my nipple. “Go slow. We don’t got anywhere to be.”
Closing my eyes, I focus on breathing. “Are you really gonna fit?”
“I’mma fit just fine.” He chuckles. “Now relax andgo slow. You feel fuckin’ amazing. You’re doing so good, Billie.”
I sink a little lower. Gasp. Ryder’s playing with my cunt now, stroking my clit.
“Can you come again?”
“I don’t—not usually.” Lower. I’m split open, coming apart the more I sink onto his girth. “But—with you—maybe. Probably.”
I hear the smile in his voice when he says, “Definitely. Just get all the way down and I’ll take care of the rest, yeah?”
“This is my life.” I’m barely able to speak. The penetrationhurts, but I keep going. “I’m not allowed to have anything apart from my family—anything for myself. But this, I’m keeping. I wanna keep it just for us. Just for now.”
He grunts. His hand finds mine on his shoulder, and he twines our fingers. “I hear you. I won’t say a word. This—it’s just for us. Promise me one thing, though?”
My legs are shaking. I can’t hold myself up anymore.
Rocking my hips, I take him the rest of the way inside me so that he’s sunk to the hilt.
A burning stretch has me crying out.
Ryder kisses my shoulder. “Aw, Billie.”
