Daksh: That’s not healthy.
Amruta: It’s no longer your problem, Daksh. That’s just how my mind works. It wasn’t going to change by you saying, stop worrying about it.
Daksh: And I was the opposite. I was, like, we will see what happens. And that made us both angry. But more than that... you know...
Amruta: . . . just say it.
Daksh:... it was like something was always missing.
Amruta: You’re beating around the bush again. So, Daksh always said that in our marriage, romance was missing.
Daksh: I didn’t say that.
Amruta: He meant that. He kept saying, he thought it would feel different. And every time he told me that, I used to get so angry. I used to be, like, can’t you see all the things I do for you! I think about you all the time! I take care of you and whatnot! But now I see how that was not what you wanted.
Daksh: True. I always knew how to take care of myself.
Amruta: I’m sorry I couldn’t give you what you wanted.
Daksh: Don’t say that.
Amruta: But it’s true. It wasn’t what you thought it would be.
Daksh: You had your love story, right? With Amit before he died. For years, you guys gave each other gifts, went outon dates, held each other’s hands and promised each other forevers.
Amruta: That’s what you don’t get. I was eighteen. I had the optimism and the energy to do all of that.
Daksh: Well, I never got to do that. And then, when I got married to you, you were very... jaded.
Amruta: I was also very scared, Daksh. To depend on you for all my happiness and then... you know.
Daksh: To me, it didn’t feel fair. I got the bored version of you. Not bored, but someone who was doing all this for the second time.
Amruta: I got old too, Daksh.
Daksh: We are the same age.
Amruta: You’re much younger, or you got much younger. You also know that. And you keep getting younger. For all the listeners who have joined in, Daksh has bought a new motorcycle. Who buys a motorcycle at this age?
Daksh: I’m only twenty-nine! And I had set my sights on that motorcycle for like... ages.
Amruta: It’s not the motorcycle that was the problem. It’s the kind of person you were becoming. You were going on these long rides with your friends. And then, you took us on weekend trips...
Daksh: They were so much fun.
Amruta: It’s not the fun part that was the problem. You were finally doing stuff that you couldn’t when you were younger... it’s the same thing with romance. You wanted a twenty-year-old’s romance at twenty-seven, twenty-eight.
Daksh: Yes, I get it. But what can we do about it? It’s who I am now.
Amruta: And that’s why we are here, aren’t we?
Daksh: Should we wrap this up now since we are not taking any questions from the listeners...?
Amruta: I think so.
Daksh: So, for our listeners, what are you going to do, Amruta? Like, in life?
Amruta: Something around audio. That’s for sure. I don’t think they will take me back at my teaching position after I have cribbed about them so much over the years. You?
