“He didn’t sleep much last night,” Wyatt adds.
I nod, knowing it’s probably because of the nightmares he still has sometimes.
Linc leads the way into a storage closet in the back, so we can all talk in private without a chance of Oliver waking up and hearing us.
“What’s going on, beautiful? You’re kind of freaking me out here,” Wyatt says.
I take a deep breath, facing all three of them. They’re lined up against a wall of shelves that are filled with liquor boxes.
“I have some things I need to say, and I really don’t want you guys to respond right now. I want you to think about it before you give me an answer. Okay?”
They all look wary as fuck, but they nod.
“I’m in love with all of you,” I blurt out.
I guess we’re just fucking going for it.
I hold up my hand, silencing them before they can say anything in response.
“I’ve known for a while, but I can’t keep it in anymore. I love what we’ve built together.” I take a deep breath, needing a little courage to say the next part.
“But I want more. I need more. I don’t want to just be yours in secret. I want to be together for real, in front of everyone, in front of Mav and Oliver. I want all of us to be a family.” Tears start to well in my eyes. “I want a marriage and more kids. I want a family. I want forever.”
Kane and Wyatt both look like they’re about to speak, so I hold up my hand again. “Just let me get this out.”
They nod.
“I know that’s a lot to ask, but it’s what I want. That isn’t going to change, so I’m here fighting for what I want our future to look like. If that isn’t…” A tear falls down my cheek. I don’t even try to swipe it away. “If that isn’t what you want, I would rather know now than down the line when I’m inevitably even more in love with you.”
My eyes close for a second as I pull in a lungful of air. “Please don’t say anything right now. Think about this… really think about it. When you know for sure, I’ll be here.”
I give each of them a quick kiss, fighting the whole time to keep from crumpling to the floor in a puddle of my own tears. They’re all standing there, stunned and silent, when I walk out of the closet and down the hall.
I barely make it to my car before I break down into tears. Just the thought of them saying that isn’t what they want is enough to make my entire world feel like it’s crashing down around me.
I’m trying to hold onto the hope that we will get the future I’m dreaming up in my head, but I’m struggling to keep from getting lost in the fear of losing all of them.
CHAPTER FORTY-SEVEN
Kane
After Abby stirredup the emotional tornado and bolted from the bar, it was an easy conversation for the three of us. It was a hell fucking yes, we want the same things.
I love her more than I thought was possible. She is the other half of me.
She is the reason things never worked out with any other woman because my heart knew she existed out there in the world.
I don’t know why I’m so nervous right now, standing outside Oliver’s door. I need to talk to him before we take this next step with Abby.
This is one hundred percent real now, so I need to be honest with him and see how he feels about everything.
I softly knock on the door, then push it open. He’s sprawled out on his bed, reading a book Maverick gave him last week. He’s always been a good reader, but he’s been doing it more often since he and Maverick became friends.
“Can I talk to you for a minute?”
“Yeah,” he says, setting the book on his nightstand. He scoots up to lean against his headboard.
I sit on the edge of his bed, facing him. “I have a friend.”Really? That’s the best you’ve got?I shake my head, trying to stay focused. “I have a friend that I fell in love with. Well… actually, Linc and Wyatt love her, too.”
