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"I know." Because I do. I watched it on the feed. I saw him recognize the man in the lab coat, the three seconds of hesitation, the two shots that erased a shared history.

"There were prisoners. Experiments. I didn't know about those."

"Neither did the intelligence analysts." It's true and it's also insufficient, and we both know it, but I say it anyway because the truth doesn't stop being true just because it's not enough.

"I should have. I was there for years before they sent me to the Torrences. I should have known. Should have looked harder, asked questions, paid attention to where the sublevel corridors went. I walked past those doors, Aura. I walked past them every day and I never asked what was on the other side."

"Stop." I rise on one elbow. Look at him in the low light, his profile sharp against the pillow, his eyes open and fixed on the ceiling like he's reading something written there that only he can see. "You did what was necessary. We all did. That's what war costs."

"Is it worth it?"

The question sits between us. I feel its weight, the genuine uncertainty of it, from a man who spent his life being used as a tool by people who never asked him whether the work was worth the cost, because tools don't get to ask.

"The data we recovered." I hesitate. I'd planned to wait until morning. Planned to let him sleep, let the distance of a few hours soften what Astra found. But he's asking me if it was worth it and I owe him the only answer I have. "There's something you need to see. Something about Malachar Torrence."

His expression sharpens. Even in the dark, I see it, the shift from exhausted grief to operative focus, the reflex so deeply trained that it survives any amount of damage. "What about him?"

"The coordinates. Where he went through the anomaly." I hold his gaze. "The Protocol was tracking him. They've been monitoring energy signatures on the other side of the breach. Biological signatures. Sustained ones."

He's very still.

"He's alive, Ethan. On the other side. And they've been trying to bring him back."

The silence that follows is a different kind than the one that came before. Not the silence of grief or guilt or exhaustion. This silence has a shape. An architecture. The silence of a chessboard rearranging when a piece everyone thought was captured walks back onto the board.

Malachar Torrence. The patriarch. The architect of the Torrence syndicate. The man who built an empire on violence and vision and then vanished into a hole in reality itself. Father to the brothers who inherited his throne and his wars. The ghost story that every power player in this sector tells in different versions, each one designed to serve whoever's telling it.

Alive. Somewhere on the other side of a tear in the fabric of space, living or surviving or trapped in something that looks enough like life to register on the Protocol's instruments.

And now we have the map. The coordinates crystallize into something tangible, something that transforms from theory intotrajectory. Something that means we're no longer studying the problem from a distance—we're tracing the path to it.

"Does Zane know?" Ethan asks. His voice carries the particular quality it gets when he's running calculations underneath the words, when his mind is sorting through probabilities and outcomes and all the ways this information restructures everything they thought they understood about the game's current state.

"Astra reported it in the war room. He heard." I keep my voice level, clinical even—the tone of someone delivering intelligence rather than confession. "The full briefing. The coordinates. The Protocol's sustained monitoring. All of it."

"What did he do?" There's something underneath the question that isn't quite curiosity. It's recognition, maybe. The way one predator reads another predator's response to scent-marked territory being violated. Zane's reaction to his father's survival will tell Ethan everything he needs to know about what the eldest Torrence is willing to risk, what he's willing to sacrifice, what he's still capable of becoming.

"Nothing." I remember Zane's stillness, the controlled non-reaction, the way he sealed whatever erupted inside him behind walls that have been load-bearing since before I met him. "He went back to issuing orders. Like she'd told him the weather report."

Ethan lets out a breath that's almost a laugh, if laughter could sound like a bone setting. "That's how you know it hit."

"I know."

We lie there. The dark hums around us with the low vibration of the station's systems, the heartbeat of a place that doesn't sleep, that keeps processing and recycling and sustaining regardless of what the people inside it have done or had done to them. I think about the prisoners in the sublevel. The woman with the too-bright eyes. The word she called my husband, theaccuracy of it, the way he absorbed it like a blow he'd been expecting.

Monster.

We made you a monster, and now you've proven us right.

I put my hand on his chest. Feel his heart beating under my palm, steady and alive, the heart of a man who killed someone he knew today and carried the weight of rooms he never opened and is lying beside me in the dark trying to decide whether the word monster fits him like a diagnosis or a name.

I don't tell him he's not one. I don't offer that comfortable lie. Instead I press my hand tighter against his chest, over the beating, and I stay.

The father. The monster. Alive, somewhere beyond a tear in reality.

And now we have the map to reach him.

I close my eyes and feel the war we just won already dissolving into the shape of the next one.