Page 52 of Proxy


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People notice. I let them.

The toast comesat the evening's close, as tradition demands. Each house, each major alliance, is expected to offer words. When the rotation reaches my name, I don't hesitate. I cross to the raised platform where the orchestra has gone silent, and I take the microphone from its stand with the steady hand of a woman who has already bet everything tonight and has nothing left to hedge.

The room quiets. Hundreds of faces turn toward me. I find Ethan in the crowd. He's standing near Ky, and my brother looks nervous enough for both of them. Ethan doesn't look nervous at all. He looks at me the way he looked at me in the alcove. Like I am the most dangerous thing he's ever seen. Like he wouldn't change a single thing about that.

I speak.

"The Consortium trained me to resist Empri influence." My voice is steady. Clear. Carrying across the marble and the crystal and the silence without effort. "To see them as threats to be managed. Weapons to be contained. Anomalies to be studied and feared and, if necessary, eliminated."

A ripple moves through the crowd. I can feel my mother's attention like a laser strike between my shoulder blades.

"Tonight I stand before you with my husband." I don't gesture toward him. I don't need to. Every person in this room knows exactly where he is. "Half-Empri. Fully capable of manipulation. And I tell you that I have never felt more in control."

The silence is absolute. Not even the sound of breathing.

"He makes me stronger. Our alliance makes the Consortium stronger. That is not containment." I let the word land. Let it sit in the mouths of the Purists who have been tasting it all evening, the word my mother packaged for them like a gift. "That's partnership."

I set the microphone back in its stand. The click of it is the loudest sound in the room.

Then, slowly, from somewhere in the middle of the crowd, someone begins to clap. Uncertain at first. Testing the air. Someone else joins. Then another. The applause grows like a tide, uneven and hesitant but rising, and I stand in the center of it and I do not look at my mother.

I don't need to look at her to know her expression is unreadable. I've been reading unreadable expressions my entire life, and I know that what lives behind them is usually the most dangerous thing in the room.

Later.After the crowds thin and the music fades and the last of the wine glasses are collected by silent attendants. After Ethansqueezes my hand and goes ahead to our quarters, trusting me to follow. After Ky catches my eye across the emptying ballroom and mouths be careful with his color-shifting eyes gone dark with worry.

I'm standing alone on the eastern balcony when she finds me.

"That was theatrical."

No emotion in her voice. My mother delivers the words the way she delivers everything, with the precision of a scalpel and the warmth of deep space. I don't turn around.

"It was true."

"Was it?" She moves to stand beside me. In my peripheral vision, her profile is porcelain-perfect, ageless in the way that only Consortium medical technology and absolute self-discipline can achieve. Her eyes, when I finally meet them, are calculating. Not angry. Something worse than angry. "You've surprised me, Aura. I'm not sure I like it."

"I'm not sure I care."

The words taste like freedom and fear in equal measure, and I mean both.

"You should." She steps closer. Close enough that I can smell her perfume, the crisp, cold floral she's worn my entire life. Close enough that anyone watching from inside would see a mother and daughter sharing a private moment. "Because I've decided to accelerate the project. The one your husband's intelligence made possible."

My pulse, which had been settling, kicks hard against the inside of my wrist. "What project?"

"The 7 Protocol has been studying anomalies for decades. They know things we don't. Ethan Eames knows what they know." She pauses. The pause is deliberate. Everything about my mother is deliberate. "And now, so will we. When we take their facility."

The words don't register at first. They sit in the air between us like something suspended in zero gravity, turning slowly, catching light.

"Take..." I start.

"The Consortium is going to war, Aura." My mother's voice is still perfectly even. Still perfectly cold. "And your husband is going to help us win."

She turns and walks back inside. The hem of her ice-blue gown whispers across the marble, and the sound is the loneliest thing I've ever heard.

I stand on the balcony with the engineered stars turning overhead and the taste of Ethan still on my lips and the crystal-sharp understanding that the game I thought I was playing was a game inside a game inside a war I didn't know had started. Everything I just declared in that ballroom, the partnership, the defiance, the hand held publicly in the face of their contempt. All of it a move in a battle I didn't know was happening.

My mother saw my declaration of love and calculated its military applications.

And my husband, the man whose heartbeat I can still feel against my palm, whose body I can still feel between my thighs, whose intelligence and warmth and terrifying, beautiful capacity for loyalty I just staked my reputation on, is about to become a weapon in a war he doesn't know is coming.