It’s taking everything in me not to rip her panties off and dive into her pussy. This… her and me in my room, on my bed, half-naked is not how I expected the night to end. I place a hand on either side of her, holding my body above her as I gaze down at her.
Amberlee licks her lip, which trembles slightly.
“What do you want?” I ask, nearly breathless. The sight of her like this is more than I could have ever dreamed of.
“You.” The word is so soft, if I hadn’t been paying attention, I wouldn’t have heard it. She trails her fingers along my arm, the touch alone is practically electrifying.
I want her. So fucking bad.
But not like this.
“You’ve been drinking. We both have. I don’t want you to regret anything that happens.” I’ve got to keep my wits about me. Her mind is fuzzy, and if she were to hate me because of one night of us being together, I couldn’t live with myself.
“I know exactly what I’m doing. I’ve wanted you since I was fifteen, Jeremiah,” she says, her voice strong and certain. Her gaze full of unsaid things.
“I’ve dreamed of this moment. Of being with you, and I don’t want to wait another minute.”
My head is in turmoil, as my brain and dick battle over what to do. Making love to her now, while she’s under the influence of alcohol, is wrong, and I know it. I’ve made this stupid mistake before, seven years ago. But Amberlee is different. Being with her isn’t wrong; it’s right in so many ways.
Just as I’m about to give in to my desires, I remember I didn’t bring any condoms. Sex wasn’t really in the plans this weekend, only winning the heart of the woman I love. I know good things take time, and I didn’t intend onthisscenario happening this soon, if at all…
“We can’t,” I say defeatedly as I lift up, lying back on the bed beside her.
Amberlee sits up, not even looking at me.
“You don’t want me? But you said…” Her voice trembles and I feel like shit.
“Were you playing with me? Toying with my emotions? Am I just a game to you?” Her voice hitches, and when she casts her gaze at me, I see the first tear trailing down her face.
“No, I want you more than anything, I just don’t have a condom.”
Her face lightens, and the corners of her mouth turn up in a smile. “Oh. Um, I’m on the pill and I’m clean. If that’s what you’re worried about.” She blushes slightly, looking down. “I… umm… I haven’t been with anyone before.”
I almost can’t believe what I’m hearing.
A virgin? How?
“Amberlee, this can’t be how you plan to lose it.” It should be something romantic. Suddenly I feel like an ass. A better man would end it now, and make sure that her first time is full of romance and all that shit women love.
I sit up, cupping her face with my hand. “It should be special, and not while you’re drunk.” She deserves the world and I want to be the one who gives it to her.
“That’s just it. It would be special,” she says, her eyes misty and beautifully warm. “Don’t you get it?You’rethe person I’ve always wanted to give it to. I’ve wanted you to be the first and last person I’ll ever be with.” She reaches behind her, unhooking her bra, letting the straps slip off her arms, and it pools in her lap.
Her breasts are spectacular. Her flesh-colored nipples are already pebbled. Do they ache to have my mouth sucking them, swirling my tongue around the hard little peak, nibbling gently? Reaching out, I let my thumb brush along one of them as Amberlee moans.
Doing it now may be the wrong way, but she is my end game, and I need to be inside of her.
“Promise not to hate me tomorrow?”
“I could never hate you,” she whispers softly, her words like an answered prayer.
“Okay. Just so you know, I’m clean too. I’ve never had sex without a condom since Sylvia, and I was tested after her,” I say the last word softly, hating that I have to bringherinto our moment.
“Lie down, baby. I want to taste you.”
Amberlee lowers herself back down, spreading her legs so that I can position myself between her thighs. Amberlee lifts her ass slightly as I hook my fingers under the straps of her panties and slip them off, exposing her bare pussy to me, which is already glistening.
For me.
