“Brand-new. For you.” He pours it on his fingers and blows to warm it. Jamal settles between my legs and pushes my knees up.
“You look good there,” I say. There’s something about the roundness and cut of his shoulders that arouses me. I grab my knees to stop myself from pinning him with them.
The thought that I trust him completely takes me by surprise. Today it’s more. I’ve trusted him with my body and my feelings, but tonight I’m willing to give up all control and let him lead.
It’s a first for me.
“You gonna let me put my cock where it belongs?” he asks as he massages my rim. “So good for me.” He swipes my head with his tongue and presses a finger inside me. Jamal expertly finds my prostate and caresses it. I pull a pillow over my head to drown out the noise I’m making.
“Let me see your eyes,” he says, and I toss the pillow aside. “They change shades of green depending on your mood.” He works another finger in and licks my cock like a lollipop. “When you want me, they’re bright green and hooded. When you’re angry, they’re so dark they’re almost black. I love to see them shiny green because you’re happy or teasing. Relax.”
I exhale and sink into the bed.
“That’s it,” he encourages me, and his tongue joins his fingers. His aqua eyes meet mine, and my world tilts on its axis.
Jamal sees me, the real me. I’ve craved this my entire life, to have someone notice me and consider my feelings. He understands my mood changes from the color of my eyes to the strain in my muscles.
It’s more vulnerable than being naked.
“Kitten, stay with me.” He traps me in his stare as he adds a third finger. “You and me, right here, right now. Got it?”
I twist a braid around my finger and agree. My soul soars every time he calls me Kitten. He says it with a tenderness that turns me to jelly. “Fuck me,” I demand, fearing I’ll come too soon.
Jamal pulls his fingers out and wipes them on the sheet by my head. Switching his weight, he shoves the other hand in my mouth. He dares me with his eyes to protest, but I don’t. I suck his fingers with the same force I want him to fuck me. The sound is quieter than my moans would be.
It’s astounding what I’d allow this man to do to me. Only him. I’d never trust anyone else.
He lines himself up and eases in. I’m so close to the edge, I rock all of my weight onto him, forcing him to sink in farther.
“Fuck, you’re sucking me in and…and I need a second.” Jamal tips his head back to inhale and meets my gaze on his exhale. “Yeah, I’d live here.” His smile makes my stomach flip as he sinks in and pulls out achingly slow.
“More,” I gurgle around his fingers. He presses down on my tongue, and my vision goes white.
Jamal plunges in, and our bodies slap together. It’s too loud, and the headboard hits the wall. Both our eyes bulge with panic.
“Don’t,” I beg.
“I won’t,” he agrees, understanding that we’re not stopping. “Hang on.” He throws the folded blanket from the end of the bed onto the floor next to the pillow. “Think we can do this and stay connected?”
“We’re professional athletes. We got this.” The thud of landing on the floor echoes throughout the room, and it knocks the wind out of me. He cradles my head in his hands, which helps break the fall.
“J?” his mom calls from downstairs.
“All good,” Jamal yells back, and shakes with silent laughter. He’s half in me only because he’s so long. I’ll never complain. “I’m so sorry,” he whispers in my ear.
My breath whooshes back, and I grip his hips. “Not nearly as sorry as you’ll be if you don’t make me come.” My words were meant to be stern, but they’re airy.
Jamal takes his time, placing the pillow under my head and spreading the blanket over the worn, woven area rug.
I’d be annoyed if it weren’t so damn honorable.
“You good?” he asks, searching my eyes.
He’s so much better than I am. If I had my dick in someone and they told me to make them come, I wouldn’t hesitate for a second. I certainly wouldn’t ensure their comfort and check in again. Jamal would stop immediately if I changed my mind.
Instead, I lean up for a quick kiss and pull him deeper.
“I wish we could do this all night, but you’re too needy.”
