His sincerity takes me aback, but I don’t disagree. I’m positive he’s had admirers do so many wild things for him that he’s unaware of. His standoffish vibe only increases his appeal.
Theo flattens himself on the bed, resting his head on my thigh. Normally being this up close and personal would be cringy, but his eyes smolder, shifting between watching my facial expressions and my fingers. His tongue constantly peeks out. Lust rolls off him, washing away all my self-consciousness.
My skin drowns in his attention, gooseflesh popping up as he stares.
“Your hole looks so needy swallowing your finger. Are you ready for another one?”
I’m a vibrating ball of desire and don’t recognize myself. Theo makes me feel everything so intensely, the type of things I thought were unattainable ideals from books and movies. The rabid expression in his eyes sets me on fire as I sink another finger in and scissor them to stretch my resistance. I’ve used my toys thinking of Theo, so my body gives in easily.
“Kitten,” I moan. I’m usingmyfingers, but we both wish they were his.
“So fucking beautiful.” Theo plants sloppy open-mouthed kisses on my inner thigh. “I can’t believe you’re trusting me with this.” His eyes shine adoringly, and I’m so glad I waited for Theo because it matters to him. And that is important to me, finding someone who understands the significance and takes it seriously. He’s my true gift.
My fingers are not enough, and being responsible sucks. We won’t have our test results back until we get home, so using condoms is the smart choice. Now I understand his frustration. I’m half a second away from not fully opening myself up and sinking down on him raw.
I add more lube and one more finger. Theo breathes hard as he fists my cock and twists. An animalistic sound whooshes out before I find my words. “Condom. Now.” I don’t have the brain cells for full sentences.
Theo rolls it down his length with shaky hands. “Maj,” he comforts me as I whine when I pull out. “I’m here.”
He penetrates my entrance and pushes in achingly slow. A hand on my hip prevents me from bucking up to impale myself on him. He’s larger than my toys, but I can take more. He’s being caring and cautious. There’s a stinging burn, but it should go away soon.
With Theo, I’m the reckless one, as if I’ve had a personality transplant—a fuck now and talk later mentality. With each thrust, he sinks deeper, but I need… “More,” I bark out.
“Your hot ass is squeezing me so good. Behave.” He nips my neck. “It’s not a race to the finish line. I’m hoping for a marathon.” Theo circles his hips, crushing my cock between us.
Unintelligible sounds leave my mouth.
It’s too good.
Too much.
Not enough.
“You like that? That feels unreal, as if I’m capable of anything and everything.” Theo kisses me, but our movements make it difficult. He sucks my bottom lip, and the skin stays connected to his mouth as if my lip can’t bear to be separated from him. I’m fully into that plan.
I palm his plump ass to change the angle, and he hits my prostate. My muscles flutter around him, trapping him in me.
“Fuck.” Theo’s eyes roll back as he bottoms out. I’m fuller than I’ve ever been, stretched around his big cock.
He’s all muscle and power under my fingers. His goddamn hockey ass drills me as his hips expertly swivel.
I lift my legs to his shoulders, putting myself at his mercy. There’s no way for me to control anything in this position, and I crave it from him, telling him without words how much I trust him.
We work up a sweat, and I lick the droplets from the side of his neck that have run down from his hair. Now I understand Nevaeh’s monster porn, where the creatures can fill your mouth and hole with appendages.
As if he can read my mind, he sticks his fingers in my mouth to suck. They press on my tongue, and he increases his pace. Our bodies smash together, making dirty, sexy, sweet sounds. Sounds I’ll never forget.
There’s a light birthmark next to his right eye. I’ve never noticed it before, but now, staring into his eyes, I can’t miss it. Another small part of Theo that only I get.
“I’m close.” His eyes squeeze closed like it will help him hold off. When they open, there’s a desperation to them I need to soothe.
Theo thrusts harder and faster, chasing his release, but there’s fear in his eyes that he won’t get what he needs. I wrap my hand around his throat without any pressure, but it’s the magic button. He convulses as his orgasm rips him apart.
He groans my name as he comes. Theo is probably the most handsome man I’ve ever seen. If he didn’t have hockey, he’d be in front of a camera. But the face he makes as he comes, with round, incredulous emerald eyes and pure bliss, melts every single brain cell I have. He’s otherworldly.
Watching him tips me over the edge, and I see stars as my body shatters beneath him, exploding with pleasure I didn’t know was possible. My hand flexes on his throat, and his cock twitches. I’m a live wire and boneless at the same time.
Sex is so much more than I expected. Being inside Theo was life-changing, but this is even more so. The physical connection is phenomenal, but the ability to trust each other means everything.
