“What the hell have I done?” he repeats as if he could take back what he just did. What I reciprocated.
“Conin—” and the words are lost.
Conin.
I—did I cheat on him? Have I betrayed him? Would he understand? Would this be okay for him? Would he allow it? Does he feel the same?
“Ezra, I’m so sorry.”
“I–it’s okay.”
“No, it’s not. I don’t want to ruin what you and Conin have.”
“It’s okay,” I say. But I don’t know if it is. I don’t know if I believe it. All I know is that I love Conin, but there’s obviously chemistry between Atlas and me.
“This isn’t how I wanted you to find out. I shouldn’t have done that to you.”
I kissed back.
“Find out what?”
“That I like you. And that I like Conin.”
“Oh.”Oh. OH.“Have you two—”
“No,” Atlas quickly interjects.
“So, you’re—”
“Yes.”
“Oh.”
“I’m sorry, Ezra.”
“It’s alright,” I say because maybe it is. “I think I am, too.”
“You are?”
“Yeah. I believe so.”
“Well, shit,” he says, breathless.
“Shit,” I say.
One second, two, three.
“What now?” he asks.
“This,” I answer.
I pull him close. Our bodies flush hot near each other. The kiss I give him is a promise: soft, subtle, warm.
Maybe this is okay.
Maybe we will be alright.
Chapter 54
