I need to get off.
But my hand stills. I don’t want to. I want him to, but more than that, I want to keep the level of intensity because right now it feels like I’m floating.
How can I face him, wanting him like this?
Steph is right. He’s going to meet a girl one day, and how do I move on? Not even to save face. Getting a taste of what I’ve always wanted will poison the rest. I’ve been lucky to have his intensity focused on me for the last three years, but it will turn away, right?
He’s waiting on the sofa when I walk out, arm stretched over the back.
“What do you want to watch?”
“There’s got to be a movie or something on.” I sit on the opposite end of the couch.
“What the fuck?” Wolfe shouts, startling me.
“What?” I ask, coming out of my kiss stupor a little.
“I kiss you once, and you sit on Mars?” He stares in disbelief.
“Huh?” Had I missed something?
“You’ve never sat that far away, not even when we’re around a bunch of hockey douche bros. You’re okay with them calling you gay but not being near me?” Wolfe is actually upset.
“I umm… I didn’t…” How do I even respond to that? “I’m sorry. That’s not how I want you to feel.”
“Then why’d you sit over there?” he asks pointedly.
“I thought you’d want some space, I guess.”
“Did I ask for space?” He crosses his massive arms over his chest. “I’m great at communication.”
Bastard. But he’s right.
I scoot closer. “I guess you didn’t.”
He glares at me for another second, then turns his attention back to the TV. “If it’s awkward for you, I won’t kiss you again. We can make it work tomorrow without it.” His words are so pointed, I’m instantly defensive.
“No!” I’m a little too eager, and I tone it down to continue. “I don’t think it was awkward. Did you?”
“I didn’t until you sat over there.”
“Don’t be pissy. Please. I don’t want things to be weird between us. That’s the last thing I need. You’re my best friend.” I hold my breath because if I ruined everything over a kiss, I’ll never forgive myself.
He finally turns on me. “Okay.”
“You’re not mad?”
He pushes to his feet. “Maybe we should just go to bed.”
“Wait.” I jump to my feet, determined not to let him leave like this.
TEN
WOLFE
He reaches out to grab me but hesitates.
“What did I do?” I ask.
