Page 64 of Resisting Blue


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A striking twist of bloodred, winding supports bends around the glass like a thick vine you can't break and holds the gold plates sturdy. There's a violent intensity to it, creating a stark contrast against the polished gold and serene blue sand.

The colors don't just coexist. They're seamlessly intertwined with warning, time suspended between calm blue promise and a red threat that keeps it upright.

I set it on my desk and continue to marvel over it, watching the blue sand gracefully fall. After a few minutes, I notice there's a small folded card tucked in the side.

My throat thickens. I shouldn't read it. It's inappropriate and sure to be another violation.

Time stands still. Curiosity wins. I unfold the paper.

Her handwriting curves across the page in gentle blue ink.

Dr. Mercer,

I'm so sorry I broke your great-grandfather's hourglass when we first met.

I know I can never replace something so meaningful, but I found this, and I thought of you instantly.

And I won't lie. I hope you use it for all your hourly appointments and always think of me.

Thank you for not abandoning me.

Love,

Blue

My lungs stop working. For a moment, I can't move.

Love.

She doesn't know what love is.

I'm going to need to talk to her about this.

How did she know it was my great-grandfather's hourglass?

Did I tell her?

No, I didn't.

The note feels sharp in my hands, the words cutting through every line I tried to draw today. The hourglass sits heavy in my lap, the blue sand settling like a heartbeat, quiet, steady, and persistent.

It's a symbol, a message, and a tether all in one. And now I'm holding it.

I run my thumb over the engraved gold, trying desperately to put it back in the box and tell her I can't keep it.

I can't.

I set the note down carefully beside the box, but the words cling to me, threading through my chest like a vine tightening around a tree.

Broken, yet still yours. Forever in time.

My breath shudders out. This is entirely wrong. Yet, as I turn the hourglass in my hands, watching the first trickle of blue sand slide down in a slow, hypnotic stream, one truth hits me with the force of a confession.

I don't want to give it back, reprimand, or push her away.

I want to keep it and her.

I'm not sure how to hide it anymore, but I'm in territory I have no place entering.