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It’s definitely a date.

“Oh my God,” I whisper. “I’m an idiot.”

I walk to the bathroom, turn on the light, and stare at myself in the mirror.

My hair is a mess. My mascara is smudged. I look like a woman who is being actively haunted by a very determined billionaire.

Which is accurate.

I splash cold water on my face and lean forward.

“You are not going,” I tell my reflection.

Reflection: Ruby looks unconvinced.

“You are strong,” I tell her.

She squints like she’s considering filing a complaint.

“You do not crumble for a hot man in a suit.”

She raises a brow.

“You are NOT THINKING ABOUT HIS HANDS.”

She absolutely is.

I turn the light off, grab my phone again, and crawl into bed.

I turn on a meditation video to calm my brain.

It works for thirty seconds.

Then my mind immediately replays dinner: the wine, the candles, the soft lighting, the way he watched me like he was memorizing every expression I made.

I squeeze my pillow.

“This is not my fault,” I whisper. “He’s too intense. Any woman would be feral.”

My brain agrees.

My body double agrees.

My ovaries are already writing wedding vows.

I drift in and out of half-sleep and fully-awake panic until the sun starts to rise.

When my alarm finally goes off, I sit up with the physical grace of a corpse.

I grab my phone.

No new messages.

Okay. Good. Great. Healthy. Normal.

I get ready for work slowly, pathetically, like someone walking toward her own emotional execution.

When I finally leave my apartment, I feel marginally more human, until my phone buzzes.