Dante squeezes me and kisses the top of my head. “It’s okay, pip. We’re just trying to sort out how we make this work for all of us. All of us.”
I draw a breath into my starving lungs. Fuck.
Wyatt sighs and drags a wet hand through his curling hair. “Fuck.”
His gaze captures mine and holds me pinned in place. Longing like I’ve never seen is laid bare in his dark eyes. Dante’s arm releases me before I even realize I’m rising and moving over to Wyatt.
His hands catch my hips as I draw closer and he pulls me down to straddle his lap. Our naked bodies collide as his arms wrap around me, holding me close. “If I could take back those years, I would, trouble.”
I close my eyes and breathe in. His woodsy leather scent rises with the flowers and herbs of the water. My arms tighten around him, like I could hold him to me forever and stay locked in this moment where he’s mine.
But I’m not the girl who believes things work out for everyone.
Madison and her guys aren’t me and my guys. This is a flash in the pan. A moment in time I’ll never forget or regret, but I know it will come to an end. There’s too much history with us. Too much at stake when Tom comes back.
Fuck, too much at stake when my mom comes back. She wants me married off to someone of a higher social standing. All these guys have that in common, but she wants me married to one, not four.
Can I imagine a future with these men? I want to, but I shouldn’t.
“Hey.” Finn’s voice and his hand on my back make me realize I’m shaking in Wyatt’s arms.
I open my eyes to his green ones. He cups my cheek and his smile sends my heart into overdrive.
“We just want to make sure that everyone is taken care of in this situation. To make sure you are taken care of.” Finn brushes his thumb along my jawline. “Today has been exceptional, flower, but we need to plan for the next few weeks at least.”
“We need guidelines to help us respect your limits and ours.”
I turn to Drew, not releasing my hold on Wyatt. If I can hold on to him, maybe I can hold on to them all.
“We need to figure out how this goes forward.” Wyatt’s chest rumbles next to mine with every word. “And what to do when it ends.”
My heart plummets into my stomach. But I swallow down that feeling. This isn’t forever. I knew that going into it. We’re just having fun.
I release Wyatt, but he doesn’t immediately release me. He kisses my temple. His arms tighten before he finally lets me go.
I climb off his lap and back into Dante’s. His arms feel like safety, like home. I wish it were an illusion. Something I made up in my head, but it’s not. These guys have always been my safe place when the world was cruel.
Dante draws me down with him so we’re all closer.
Wyatt takes my hand. His is so much bigger than mine.
“We want everyone on the same page, Sara.” Wyatt’s dark eyes try to convince me, but I know in a way this is just another rejection.
“You mean you don’t want Tom to know about this.” The words fall off my tongue.
“Tom is complicated.” Wyatt runs his other hand through his hair. “He’d never accept this. Do you think your mom would accept this?”
I blow out a breath, feeling the twist in my stomach tighten. “Can we not talk about ending this? Can we just figure that out when we get there? I don’t want to be fucking you and thinking this is the last time. I want to enjoy our time together. However long it ends up being.”
“I think that’s fair.” Drew draws a stool up to sit in front of the four of us. “But we do need to talk logistics. After all, you’re living with the three of them and dating me.”
“Not every night can be an orgy, flower.” Finn winks at me, trying to lighten the somber mood. “Though I might be able to pencil in lunchtime orgies.”
His smirk draws a smile out of me.
“Is this going to be some sort of contract deal?” I look at each of them, looking over my shoulder at Dante.
“We could put it down in writing, so everyone feels safe.” Dante runs his hand over my hair. “I can put something together that will get us started. But each of us will have our own demands on you, pip.”
