“If it’s not something you want to try, I won’t force you, Sara.” His words almost make me laugh. Everything he said was about forcing me to submit to his will. If I was still a teenager, I might have succumbed to him easily. But now, I like the idea of fighting back, of making him chase me for a change, of making him earn it.
“None of what you told me has me running screaming. Yet.” I straighten and look each of them in their eyes. “More logistics?”
Dante laughs. “Yes, a few other details to work out. Group sex?”
He looks at Wyatt, who nods. Then Finn. He smiles and nods, sending me a flirty wink. Then Drew.
“I’m good with group, though it may take a while to get our dynamics down.” Drew squeezes my thigh under the table.
Fuck, I’m so wet right now. I turn to Dante.
“You have the power, pip. Do you want to do this as individuals only or are you okay with groups of us?” Dante’s blue eyes search mine, digging in deep to find my truth.
“I’m good with both.” My cheeks heat. “I like it when you and Finn play with me together. I like the idea of all of you being there, touching me, taking me.”
Dante tips my chin up a little. “We had a chat before you came out, but you need to make the final decision. We’ve all been tested. You’re not at risk. If you want us to use condoms?—”
“No. I got an IUD earlier this year.” Swallowing, I look at all of them one at a time. “I’m protected. If we’re doing this, I want to feel you.”
Chapter 32
Consensual Contract
Sara
Fuck, that feels freeing as hell to say. I meet each of their hungry gazes.
“The other thing to get out of the way.” Dante pushes his empty plate back. “How do you want to lose your virginity, pip?”
“Oh.” My cheeks flush. “Yeah, that.”
Drew chuckles. “We should make it special.”
“I’m just so ready to be rid of it.” It spills out of me. “Do you know how hard it is to get rid of when you finally decide to get it over with?”
My gaze collides with Wyatt. His eyes are intense. Does he know I saved it for him?
I suck in a breath. Suddenly, I don’t want to make this decision. “What if I don’t know who does the actual deed and you all fuck me for the first time?”
“Is that what you want?” Dante’s calm voice draws my attention. I meet his light blue eyes and a calmness falls over me. I know he’ll take care of me.
“Yes, boss. I don’t want to choose. That’s what this whole thing is about, right? Me not having to choose between you four. About me getting to have all of you and you all having me.”
Glancing toward the bedrooms, I grimace. “But maybe not on Tom’s bed for the first time? It just seems a little too much.”
Especially when he was the one who kept us apart all these years.
“How about the suite at my club?” Drew offers. “We have all the essentials in the room. Lube, toys, rope, anything else you can think of. A bar to help with nerves for all parties. And neutral ground, so you don’t have any potential hang-ups about being in it.”
It’s also memorable. Though I don’t think we’ll need any of that stuff for the first time.
I give him a smile. “That sounds good.”
He leans in and kisses my lips softly. When I try to deepen the kiss, he backs away.
“Consent form first, princess. We’ll play after.” Drew gets out his phone. “I’ll make the arrangements with the club. Is there somewhere I can make a call?”
Dante stands and gestures for Drew to follow him back to the office.
