“And your pussy… I usually like that to be waxed smooth, but I don’t mind the little strip you have down the middle. You may keep it.”
Whoa. Wait.
Just hold the fuck on for one second.
I give myself a moment to let that soak into my brain.
“How do you know that I have a strip down the middle?”
“I saw it when Cat examined you.”
I have a sick, sinking feeling in the pit of my stomach when I realize that he has seen me naked. While I was unconscious. Spread-eagled during a vaginal exam. That’s humiliating enough when you’re awake, and you’ve consented to it. But this… it’s just so many levels of wrong. And he doesn’t care. “I can’t believe that you stayed during the exam.”
“I had to; you were unconscious. She couldn’t position you without my help.”
I have so many arguments for why that should have never happened, but to go there would be repeating myself. And he clearly didn’t see things from my point of view the first time that we discussed my being drugged.
“You looked at my naked body while I was out of it?”
“I did, and I won’t apologize for it. Because I fucking loved what I saw. Your body is gorgeous.”
Did he see everything?
I don’t want to know the answer to that question.
“Do you have any idea how deeply that violates me?”
I don’t know why I asked that. Of course, he doesn’t know. Or doesn’t care.
“Baby, I’m going to violate you a hundred different ways before you walk away from me. Looking at your naked body without your consent is the least of those violations.” His eyes roam my body. “Hell, I want to violate you right now on top of this desk so badly that I’m about to burst my fucking trousers.”
Violate me on top of his desk.I should find that appalling. I should find that frightening, especially after seeing the glimpse of darkness that he carries behind his brilliant blue eyes. I should want to run out of the front door right now and never look back.
But I don’t.
“Say that you’re submitting to me.”
Submitting.That word bothers me so fucking much.
“I’m not obedient or passive. I don’t bend to the will of others. I don’t conform to authority. That’s the reason that I was in your fucking casino to begin with. I hate being told what to do by others. I don’t think that I can be what you want me to be.”
I already know that I won’t be able to obey him. It just isn’t in my nature. And he’ll be spanking my ass all of the time if I do this. I won’t ever be able to sit down again.
“You are everything that I want you to be at this point. The other stuff will come in time as you learn.”
I don’t want to be here long enough to learn. I want to clear my debt and get the fuck out.
“I’m not like that woman upstairs. I can’t let you do all of the things that you want to do to me.”
“Even if doing so brings you pleasure in the end?”
“But is the pleasure worth the pain that will accompany it?”
“There’s a fine line between pleasure and pain. Trust me. I can give you intense pleasure. More than you’ve ever had with any of the men that you’ve been with.”
“Don’t assume that I’ve not had incredible pleasure just because I’ve not been with you. I’ve been with plenty of good lovers.”
He chuckles. “If you’d have the kind of intense pleasure that I’m talking about then you wouldn’t have just called themgoodlovers.”
