Gabe noticed the slight catch in his tone. He raised his hands and cupped Cole’s face, kissing him again. “It doesn’t only matter to girls. And it shouldn’t. Everyone remembers their first time, and it should be a good memory. Trust me…” He touched foreheads with Cole. “… you don’t want to look back with regret.”
Sliding his arms around Gabe’s waist, Cole pulled him closer. “Do you regret your first time?”
Gabe let out a short, bitter laugh. “I’ll never forget it,” he murmured. “Though I wish I could.” More thankind of.He wasn’traped; he had options, but choosing anything besides sex probably would have gotten him killed. So, maybe indirectly… or not so indirectly… it was a form of rape. It felt like it by the time Griffin and his boys finished “initiating” him into their gang. It was either endure the initiation and become one of them—or face them as enemies on the street. He was fourteen then, and all alone. If he had chosen the latter… they would have raped him anyway, much more brutally, then killed him.
That was a part of his life that only a few knew about.
And only two kneweverysordid detail.
Cole pressed against Gabe’s naked body, preventing his erection from softening. Gabe sucked kisses from his lips. “I want you so bad it’s making me crazy,” he moaned into Cole’s mouth, trembling with need. “But I won’t fuck you here, not like this. Ithasto be more than a quick fuck in the shower. Andright now…” He shoved his head to Cole’s brow and laughed unsteadily. “… it would bequick.Too quick.”
Titling his head downward, Cole looked at Gabe’s cock—hard as steel andweeping. He rubbed his palms down Gabe’s back and over his ass, lightly massaging his tense cheeks.
“Fuck…”Gabe shoved his face into Cole’s neck, groaning louder as Cole squeezed tighter. “Maybe...” Gabe cleared his throat, his head starting to spin. “Maybe we should stop and...” He cleared his throat again and leaned into Cole’s embrace, partly for support as his legs suddenly felt like rubber. “... finish this later.”
Cole kissed his shoulder, brushing his lips along the strained tendon in his neck and up to his ear. “I don’t think you can wait till later.” Then his hand wrapped around Gabe’s throbbing cock, and white-hot spears detonated behind his eyes.
“Fuuuck…”Gabe smacked his hands against the wet tiled wall hard enough to cause a sting in his palms. His forehead dropped against Cole’s shoulder, his breath breaking as Cole stroked his dick.
Fuck.It felt like the man was wringing out his fuckingsoulwith each stroke. He pushed his hips forward, thrusting his steel shaft through Cole’s tight fist. Gabe had never needed to cum so bad in his life. His chest was flush against Cole’s, heart racing like a freight train as Cole pumped him with a veryskilledhand.
“Oh, my god…” Gabe gasped, his mouth crammed into Cole’s hair, breath puffing, hips thrusting. His balls clenched tight against his body as his lower stomach muscles tightened, knotting painfully. “Fuck…”
Everything around them started to disappear except the glorious, erotic sensation of Cole’s hand pumping his cock—and the mind-shattering orgasm surging to the surface.
Then suddenly, Cole loosened his grip and started to go to his knees. Right now, Gabe would sacrifice the last five years of hislife just to have Cole on his knees before him. Yet, before Cole even touched the shower floor, Gabe stopped him.
“Wait…” Gabe swallowed. His throat felt raw, his voice raspy as he lifted Cole back to his feet. He blinked a couple of times, trying to clear his head as coherentthinkingsuddenly became a chore. “Have you…” His throat felt clogged, and he cleared it again. “Have you ever… done this before?”
Cole leaned against the shower wall. The evasiveness of his eyes didn’t sit well with Gabe. “Once.” Cole kept stroking Gabe’s dick, more slowly, but it still felt amazing and further impaired Gabe’s ability to focus.
Covering Cole’s hand, Gabe halted his movement, though he didn’t possess the willpower to remove Cole’s hand from his cock. “Did you…” He swallowed hard. “Did you enjoy it?”
Cole released him and laced his fingers behind his own neck, head hung forward. “At first,” he whispered.
“What do you mean?” The sudden tension in Cole froze everything else in place. Gabe briefly forgot about his throbbing erection and the orgasm just about to explode. “What happened?”
“I, uh…” Cole released a shaky breath. “I was on my knees, sucking him, and… and I liked it. I was taking my time because I’d never done it before and I didn’t want to scrape him with my teeth accidentally.” He cleared his throat and tilted his head upward, looking at the high ceiling of the shower room. His breath was uneven as he pursed his lips. Gabe watched his Adam’s apple bob a couple of times before he continued. “He was… kind of big, and I didn’t know how to take him all the way in without gagging.”
Gabe nearly blurted out that you don’t need to take the entire cock for it to be pleasurable for the receiver, since the most sensitive glands are at the tip. However, he held back and listened to Cole without interrupting.
“He started to get… excited… and started shoving his cock all the way into my mouth, gagging me.” Cole swallowed, but kept his eyes on the ceiling, as if he wereembarrassedto look at Gabe. “When I tried to back off, he grabbed my hair and kept thrusting. When he was about to cum, I tried to pull off because I didn’t want him to cum in my mouth. I was afraid I would gag or even puke. But…”
“But… what?” Gabe asked quietly, his chest tightening.
Cole shrugged and finally lowered his head, looking at Gabe. “He wouldn’t let me pull off. He held my head until he came.” Cole chuffed, averting his eyes. “I didn’t know a man could cum so much. I tried to swallow it all, but I started gagging and choking. When he finally pulled out, I did throw up.” He exhaled slowly, a slight catch in his voice when he added, “He thought it was funny.”
Gabe had difficulty breathing. His jaw knotted. “He thoughtassaultingyou was funny?”
“What?” Cole’s eyes snapped up. “No… he didn’t… I mean, he didn’t make me blow him. I wanted to.”
“It doesn’t matter how itstarted,”Gabe said, the level of anger bubbling up startling him a bit. “If you want to stop, then it stops.Period.”
Cole shifted anxiously. “I mean, I did agree to it. And hewasabout to cum. It wasn’t cool of me to want to stop right when he…”
“Notcoolof you?” Gabe stared at him incredulously. “Do you think youowedit to him to swallow his load just because things started out consensual? And because he wasright there,about to unload?”
Cole’s tongue darted out, nervously sliding across his lower lip. “I don’t know,” he mumbled. “Maybe.”
