With all the drama, I had been holding off on my proposal. After today, I didn’t give a damn. I couldn’t go another day without my ring on his finger. I was about to make Will mine in every way.
Chapter Twenty-Three
WILL
The information that Cara and Sara gave us wasn’t what I expected. I didn’t really know what I thought they would find out, but I didn’t think it would be this. Immense relief and happiness washed over me for trusting my instincts. I knew I was taking a risk by going against Jacob’s wishes, but it had to be done.
Cody was the last piece of the puzzle in Jacob's journey of healing. As much as he tried to cope with what he knew, it was taking a toll on him. He needed to really know what happened to Cody.
Ever since we left the clubhouse, he had been quiet. I could tell he was lost in his thoughts. I knew this was probably a lot for him, so I gave him space to process it all.
After dinner, he took Miracle to her room to get her ready for bed. My roommates were concerned with his sudden quietness. I assured them everything was okay before I went to our room to take a shower. I didn’t know what to tell the ladies without saying too much.
As I showered, I wondered what was going through his mind. Did he want to reach out to Cody? Did all those feelings he had for Cody come back? Was he going to leave me for him?
I was going down this rabbit hole faster and faster. My chest tightened at the thought of losing him after all we had worked through. He told me he loved me and thanked me for looking into Cody, but that didn’t mean he wanted to stay with me.
I mean, Cody was his first love. He was the boy he wanted to risk it all for. How could I compete with that?
Stop it, Will! Jacob loves you.
As much as I wanted to believe that, I was feeling unsure. I wasn’t an insecure person by any means, but my paranoia was beating me down. Nothing about Jacob’s and my journey had been easy. We’ve had some ups and downs. I hoped that our relationship would be resilient enough to endure any challenges.
I turned the water off before getting out of the shower. After I dried myself off, I wrapped a towel around my waist and stepped out of the bathroom. Seeing Jacob on one knee right in the center of our room made me stop in my tracks. He had a black ring box in his hand with a huge smile on his face.
Suddenly, I felt stupid with the thoughts I was having in the shower. I should never have doubted our love. Despite everything we’d been through, he’d never given me a reason to doubt his love for me. Even when we were on the outs, I knew he loved me.
“J-Jacob,” I stuttered.
He crooked his finger at me. “Come here, Dimples.” I made my way to him, my heart beating wildly in my chest. Once I was in front of him, he grabbed one of my hands. “This isn’t exactly what I had planned for this moment, but after today, I couldn’t wait any longer. Will, from the moment you entered my life, you have been what I always needed. Even when I was too afraid and beating myself down, you were there uplifting me and encouraging me. I’ve hurt you, which is the biggest thing I regret in my life, and still, you allowed me another chance to make things right.
“I went to hell and back, fighting the demons of my past to make sure I was the man you deserved. I tried convincing myself that all I needed to do was free myself from the trauma of Sire, and I would be all right. Deep down inside, I knew the thoughts of what happened to Cody would always cripple me. But I was willing to leave things the way they were, afraid of what might come with the full truth.”
Jacob's hand shook in mine as I watched his eyes glaze over. He choked out a laugh and shook his head. “But, somehow, you knew. You knew exactly what I needed. As usual, you were my strength when I was too weak. Because you were willing to go where I wasn’t, you lifted years of guilt off my shoulders. I don’t think I will ever be good enough for you, but I will spend the rest of my life proving that you made the right decision being with me.”
“Jacob,” I choked out through my tears. This wasn’t at all what I thought a proposal would look like for me, but it was perfect. His words made my heart swell.
Since the moment we made things official, this was all I wanted. I knew in my heart this man was my soulmate. The way our bodies and spirits reacted to each other wasn’t normal. Even when he wasn’t in the room, I could feel him. He said he didn’t deserve me, but I begged to differ. Jacob fought for me in a way I had longed for.
Jacob removed the gold band with diamonds and held it over my ring finger. “Dimples, will you marry me and make me the happiest man alive?” he asked as his chest heaved.
I didn’t know if he was nervous, but he had no reason to be. There was no one else on this planet I wanted to be with. “Yes!” I exclaimed, and he slid the ring on my finger.
He was on his feet in no time, kissing me like it would be the last time. I wiped the few tears that escaped his eyes as we held on to each other. His strong arms engulfed me as he kissed me ina way that only he could. I was coming undone by the second. I needed him inside of me.
I pulled away from the kiss, gazing into his eyes. “Jacob, make love to me, please. I need you right now,” I panted.
His eyes darkened, and he snatched the towel from my waist. My hard length bounced between us. Wrapping his hand around it, he stroked, pulling a moan from me.
“Fuck. This will never get old, Dimples. Watching your eyes glaze over with lust as I make you come will always do it for me.”
I could only offer a whimper since his lips were back on mine. Our tongues twirled as we made our way to the bed, never breaking our lip-lock. My hands were all over him and vice versa.
The back of my knees hit the bed, causing me to fall back. Jacob was on top of me immediately. He trailed kisses down my jaw and throat. I was yearning for more. I was like an addict to his touch. I could never get enough.
“Jacob, please,” I whined, thrusting my hips upward.
“Please, what?” he grumbled while licking my nipples. He was driving me insane.
