“You keep saying that, and I’m starting to believe that you’ll never be ready.”
My brows pinched as I stared at his beautiful face. “What?”
Will shook his head. “You keep giving me that same excuse of why you’re not ready. All you say is you’re scared, and I totally understand that. I do. But if you’re going to allow fear to lead your life, that’s your business, but don’t think I’ll let it lead mine.”
I scowled, not liking where this conversation was headed. “Just what are you trying to say, Will?”
Will bucked his eyes. “What do you think? I am not about to be your secret forever. I’ve told you countless times I want to get married one day and adopt a few kids. How in the hell am I going to get that if you can't even come clean with your brothers about us?”
“So-so-so, you would just leave me? You would just stop loving me? Is that what you’re trying to say?” I growled at the thought of it.
Will sighed with a sad expression. “Jacob, I could never stop loving you. The way I feel about you, I’m pretty sure I’ll go to my grave feeling this way. But I can't give up what I want to please you. That’s not fair. You’re the only one getting what you want. It would kill me, but, in the end, I have to do what’s best for me.”
Something inside me twisted at his words. It sounded like he was already mentally detaching himself from me. With quick steps, I walked over to him and pulled him into my arms. Will tried to resist but lost the fight when I hungrily kissed him.
He was just as weak for me as I was for him. This type of connection didn’t come around every day. He knew it and so did I. Will would always be mine. If he ever did leave me, Ididn’t mind running off every man he tried to entertain. I knew that I sounded selfish and irrational, but it was how I felt.
By the time I had Will pressed against the wall, his hands were wrapped around my neck as he pushed himself into me. Our tongues tangled as I groped his ass. When we finally pulled apart, his eyes were half-mast like he was drunk.
I brought our foreheads together. “I know you’re becoming frustrated with me, but please, Dimples, I’m begging you to just be a little more patient with me. I just need a little bit more time. Can you give me that?”
I stared into his eyes while palming his cheek, stroking it with my thumb. I saw the waver of emotions in his eyes before he nodded. I sighed in relief, knowing I hadn’t lost him. He still belonged to me.
After that dispute, things returned to normal for us. Eventually, Will moved into the house the club built for them. Luckily for us, Will ended up snagging the master bedroom on the first floor. To make things fair, the girls had the five of them pull from a hat to determine who got the master suite. All the rooms were a nice size, but the master suite was the only one with a bathroom.
Will being on the first floor made sneaking around easier. Once everyone in their house went to bed, I would crawl in through Will’s window. Every night was the same. We would spend hours talking and catching up. Then I would spend the rest of the night making love to him.
Everything came so naturally whenever I was inside him. The first night I made love to him, I wasn’t nervous at all. I felt in my heart I was right where I was supposed to be. At this point, I knew Will’s body better than my own. I knew exactly what to do to have him writhe in ecstasy.
As time went on, we kind of got settled into our routine. Then, Thor’s Ol’ Lady came into the picture. Madison came herelooking for help from Thor. Apparently, some years back, Thor thought Madison had cheated on him with his uncle, but his uncle actually had raped her. It was mind-boggling the things that man was doing to her. He was pretty much stalking her while trying to convince her that Thor had set the entire thing up. They had been apart for a decade because of Thomas and his lies. Needless to say, Thor didn’t waste any time claiming Madison and giving her his patch.
Thor claiming his woman sparked the coming-out conversation again. I didn’t believe Will was jealous at all. I knew it must have been hard to be surrounded by happy couples while keeping your relationship a secret. Will maintained a strong bond with the Ol’ Ladies. They didn’t have just a professional relationship. He was treated as family. But still, I was scared to speak up.
Will ignored me for days. I was losing my mind. I didn’t even realize how much I had become dependent on him. His love, his affection… His presence was what kept me going. Not having him was depressing as fuck. Even the guys noticed the change in my mood. I tried going to his window at night, but he kept it locked. I couldn’t take the chance of knocking too hard. That would draw attention to me, and he knew that. One night, while lying in bed, I got an alert from the cameras. When I saw Will walking around the woods on the west wing, I moved like lightning to get to him. He often did this when he needed to clear his head.
As soon as he spotted me coming toward him, he rolled his eyes and tried to walk away.
“Is this what I have to do to talk to you?” I took a step toward him, and he countered by taking two steps away from me.
“There’s nothing left for us to say to each other.” He shrugged, refusing to make eye contact.
“How can you say that after all this time?”
Will threw his head back with a humorless laugh. “Right. After all this time. And where are we? Still at square fuckin’ one,” he growled with heated eyes.
“Will, you know I love you, but I just?—”
Will shook his head vehemently. “I’m not doing this with you anymore. I’m tired of being your dirty little secret. If you don’t want the guys knowing about you, that’s your business, but I will not hide who I am for you or anyone else. I want a man who isn’t ashamed to claim me to his friends!” Will hissed at me.
Will had never been this angry with me. That caused my throat to clog up. Was he really trying to leave me?
“What exactly are you saying, Will?”
“I’m saying that if you aren’t ready to step up, then maybe it's time somebody else does!” he shouted.
The thought of another man touching him had me homicidal. I would kill anyone who even tried to touch him. Will was mine! I understood his frustration, but he was out of his mind if he thought I would give him up.
I raced forward, not giving him much time to get away, before wrapping my hand around his throat, pulling his body flush against mine. Nothing threatening or violent in a way. I would never hurt Will, and he knew that.
