I thumb through the stack. “There must be fifty exams in here.” How can I memorizeallof them?
“They date back ten years. So yeah, there’s a lot.”
I hesitate to use them as a study tool, even though it’s not outright cheating. “And you can’t actually tutor me?”
He blows a line of smoke towards the ceiling. “You didn’t just sort-of fail your first two exams, Lily. Youbombed.Most students would be crying in a corner, and if they had me as a resource, they’d be riding my?—”
“Okay,” I cut him off. And then realize that sounds like I actually want to ride his… “I mean, never mind.” I shake my head, roasting from the forehead down.
He wears a crooked smile as he puts the cig to his lips. “To pass the class, you have to make A’s on the last two tests and the final. I’m not a miracle worker.”
“Connor Cobalt is,” I mutter under my breath.
He must hear because he says, “Connor thinks he pisses rainbows, but he’s not that good. And he’s definitely not better than me.” He leans forward and taps ash in my plastic cup—full with Fizz Life, Fizzle’s new soda, zero calories and no aspartame. I stare at the soiled drink for a long while, trying to process what he just did.
But when I turn, I see him tapping more ash into the porcelain vase on the end table that a friend of Rose’s gifted her from Prague. “Rose is going to skin you alive.”
He smiles that smarmy smile again. “She’s all growl.”
I’m not so sure about that. When we were kids at a beach resort, she saw a freckle-faced boy picking on a girlnear a water slide. He called the young girl fat and pointed at her one-piece. Rose intervened and used some choice language that would make eight-year-olds blush. When the pudgy boy didn’t respond how she hoped, she grabbed his swim-trunks and yanked them to his ankles.
After that, I was glad to have my sister on my side. Ineverwanted to cross her. And even as I think about that story, I realize she would killmeif she knew I was even sort of cheating.
But what’s worse, hearing her wrath after I use the tests or seeing her disappointment by failing out of Princeton? Disappointment can cripple me. So the former is definitely more appealing.
“Look, Lily,” Sebastian says. “College is all about beating the system, and the smartest people are the ones who figure that out. You want to be smart, don’t you?”
For the first time in a while, I have a fighting chance to do well. “Okay.”
“So you keep those and you memorize hard. I have copies of them, of course.” He rises and buttons his navy blazer. He wanders around the living room, bored. “And don’t mention this to Rose. I love her, but she’s moral to a fault. It’s kind of annoying actually.”
I ignore his last slight. I can’t believe I have to lie to Rose, but this seems like the right path. I can’t fail more classes. I’ll be in college until I’m forty.
I set the old exams next to a tall stack of tabloid magazines on the coffee table. I went out this morning and bought every gossip mag in the gas station. I checked for my picture, any article, any brief mention of my addiction. Rose even searched through the newspaper and online posts, but we both came up blank. Either the blackmailer is stalling or he’s waiting for another opportune moment to strike.
We don’t even know what he wants yet. He just keepsthreatening.
“So…” I trail off as I watch Sebastian pick up a porcelain ballerina on the fireplace mantel, checking the underside for the designer or the authenticity. “If Rose believes you’re actually tutoring me, what do I tell her when you’re not here on Thursday?”
“I’ll be here, pretending. I can even bring more old exams for your other classes.” He sets the figurine down. “You copy them, though, and I’ll make your life a living hell.” His blasé voice makes the warning worse, somehow.
My phone pings, and I pick it up to check the message. The sound interests Sebastian enough to saunter over and plop by my side again.
Is Rose home?– Connor
Not yet.I text back.
Sebastian catches the conversation over my shoulder. He puts his cigarette to his lips, waiting for the response, but there is none. I’m about to slip my phone in my pocket, but Sebastian says, “Give that here.” And he steals the cell from my hands.
I should protest and put up a fight, but hisI’ll make your life a living hellline is ringing in my head. He’s kind of scary.
Sebastian types quickly and sends,Why do you want to know?He’s too curious, nosy and bored.
I left her something at the gate. I wanted to know if she’s seen it yet.– Connor
Sebastian snorts. “This is just sad.”
I frown. “Why? He bought her something.” Presents aresweet, not sad.
