I’ve tried to distract myself with gaming and streaming, and it works while I’m doing those things, but once I turn off the computer and I’m alone with my thoughts, I’m lost again.
How can we make this work? I don’t even know where they live or who they are. I know nothing about them.
I guess I can’t really decide on anything until we sit down and talk.
The only thing I’ve been sure about these last three days is that I want to be with them, to get to know them, and make this work.
That's it.
It doesn’t resolve my dilemma with Death, Waffle, and Grim. And do I continue to live here? Or will I move to wherever the guys live?
Should I keep streaming, or will the guys not approve? Maybe they don’t want me to work, and instead want me to be a stay-at-home Omega and pop out babies?
I’m not against having kids, I love kids. I’ve always wanted to find a loving pack and build a family. I like streaming, though, and I’m too young for kids right now. I’m just really starting to live my life, I don’t wanna settle down yet. I want to travel and enjoy things before bringing another life into this world. Hell, I can hardly take care of myself, I don’t want to be worrying about a little human, too.
“The only way to get some of these answers is to talk to your Alphas, Addison,” I grumble.
I finally make my fingers move and send Carson a text.
Me: Hey. Are you guys available to video chat?
I press send, and my stomach flips. My heart starts to pound against my rib cage, and my body breaks out into a sweat.
Carson: Fuck yes! Give us like five, okay? We’re just finishing up practice.
Practice? What are they practicing?
Me: Okay :)
Getting to my feet, I rush into my bathroom to check out how I look. My makeup is on point, a cute mix of pink and black. My hair is half up, half down, wavy curls with a high ponytail on top of my head. I’m wearing a pink off-the-shoulder long-sleeve crop top with a pleated pink, black and grey skirt.
The only reason I’m even showered and dressed is because I plan to stream in a few hours. It’s been a struggle to even get out of bed lately because I miss them so much.
Heading back into my room, I hook my phone up to my computer so when we video chat, they get webcam quality versus the small camera on my phone.
When my phone starts to ring, and I see Carson’s name pop up on the screen, I want to puke.
“Okay. You can do this. Breathe in, breathe out.” I close my eyes and take a few deep breaths before pressing the answer button.
The video loads, and a few seconds later, I see Carson’s handsome face come into view. I have to bite my lip from whining at the sight of him. Fuck, I miss him more than I thought.
How can I feel so much for men I just met?
“There's my Little One.” Carson’s grin is so wide, it takes my breath away.
“Hi.” I can’t hold back the smile on my face.
“Let me see!” Reid growls, shoving his head next to Carson’s. My heart starts to race when he comes into view. Fuck. He’s just as gorgeous.
“Hey, sweet girl.” Reid’s smile is just as excited as Carson’s. “We miss you. How are you? Are you okay?”
A small laugh slips out. “I’m okay. Could be better.” I chew on my lower lip. “Missing you guys though.”
“Fuck baby, we miss you too.” Carson groans. “So damn much. When can we see you again?”
“I don’t know.” I laugh. “I guess it depends on how this conversation goes.” Squinting my eyes, I cock my head to the side. “Uh, are you guys really sweaty, or just getting out of the shower?”
“A bit of both.” Carson gives me a wicked grin. “I’m just getting out of the shower.” He moves the phone to give me a nice view of his half-naked body, only a towel tucked around his waist, hiding the impressive appendage I’m well acquainted with. My cheeks heat as my thighs clench together.
