“Yeah, that pretty much sums it up,” I shrug off.
Blitz is watching me with a look that I can’t decipher.Dropping my hands into my lap, I pick at the skin on my thumb, waiting for what is coming next.I know if I were the one listening to the story I just told, I would wonder if I was fucking crazy.Then again, I’m reminded of Ainsley and Tasia’s stories and know that crazy shit just happens to the women of this club.
Hermes stops typing, looking up at me.“I have a couple of questions about the timeline.”
I nod at him, “Okay.”
“Blitz, you said it was a few years before you got Charlie’s call that Six reached out to you?”Hermes watches him when he asks.
“Yeah, I don’t know exactly how long,” Blitz answered.
My head snaps up.“Six reached out to you?”
Blitz looks over at me and, like every time Six comes up, sadness that matches mine shines back at me.He just nods solemnly.My mind is spinning.I had no idea Six feared his downfall long before it truly came.
“That means whatever Relic and Shea offered them was good enough to turn a club against their own president,” Raider states.
“When a group of men are high all the time and bleeding money because of it, all it would take is the promise of keeping them high to get them to turn,” I tell them.
“You really did not know who you were calling when you dialed that number that fateful night?”Hermes murmurs, still tapping away on his laptop.
“No, I didn’t, and to be honest, there are days I regret making the call,” I answer honestly.
Blitz moves without a word, coming to squat beside me, gripping my chin, turning my face to look at him.“Don’t say that.Don’t say that you regret being here—being with me.”
Reaching up, I grip his wrist.“I could never regret you.I regret what my being here has now brought upon you and your brothers.I just wanted to be free from what NOS was doing to me.”
“They nearly blew up my little lamb.Their choice to breathe was forfeited already,” Mercy snarls, fisting his hand on the table.
The promise of death in his words makes me shiver.Blitz doesn’t let go of my chin, keeping me entranced by his eyes.Something that looks like hope and need fills his eyes.
“Charlie, we’ve been dancing around this for many years.In truth, I don’t want to pretend any longer that staying away from you is easy.I want you to be mine.To stand by my side and be my Ol’ Lady.”
I shake my head, not because I don't want to be his, but because I am unsure that I can fully open my heart to another man.Losing Six nearly killed me, and I don’t know if I’ll be able to love like that again.Because if there is one thing I know about the man currently kneeling in front of me, it is that if I lost him, I wouldn’t recover from it.
I decide honesty is the best policy here.“I can’t go through losing someone like that again.Losing Six broke something so deep inside me that I will forever feel his loss.If I were to lose you, I wouldn’t be able to go on.And there is still a very real chance I could lose you and everyone here I’ve come to care for.”
“You’ll never lose me.The devil himself doesn’t even want my soul.”Blitz's smirk starts to melt my resolve.“Please don’t make me beg you in front of my brothers, though if that is what you need me to do, I will.”
I search his face, fighting for the strength to say no, to tell him I can’t.I don’t want to tell him no, but I’m not sure I can give him my whole heart either.“That’s just it, Blitz.If I say yes, I don’t know if I can ever give you all of me.”
“I know Charlie,” he whispers, his lips only inches from mine.“And I’m willing to live knowing that I have the woman who fought through hell to survive hell.She isn’t the same as the woman who loved Six.She is stronger, more resilient, capable, and so full of compassion that it seems to swallow you.I just hope she will give me the chance to show her I can be the man that she needs.”
With every word Blitz says, my broken heart stitches itself back together, making it impossible to continue to fight against him.I nod, unable to speak as the tears run unstopped down my face.
“Does that mean yes?”he asks me, his face lighting up like a child on his birthday.
“Yes, Blitz, I’m ready to take one last chance on love,” I whisper.
Blitz’s lips land on mine, harsh and unforgiving.I instantly open for him, allowing him to dominate my mouth.Running my hands up into the hair at the base of his head, I grip it, pulling him closer to me.To finally feel his mouth on mine, tasting him, feeling him pressed to me as I’ve only ever dreamed of.We get so lost in the kiss that it's not until someone clears their throat, chuckling, that we pull apart.Blitz cups my cheeks, tilting my head down to kiss me on the top of my head.
I press my face into Blitz’s chest to hide the blush I know is spreading from my hairline to my toes.
“As great as all that fucking was, we still have some very big issues to deal with,” Anvil says.
I decide to be a coward and stay hidden in Blitz's chest.He stands, pulling me up with him as he stands, and then he takes my seat and sits me down onto his lap.My face instantly goes to the crook of his neck.
“We need to know which man was with you tonight and what he wanted, and also how Nova ties back into all of this,” Raider’s words aren’t harsh, but they aren’t pleasant either.
