Done fighting against what I want.
Done sitting around pissed off because she is so close but untouchable.
Fucking Done!
Six
Charlie
Blitz’s heat on my back causes my knees to go weak with emotion and need.I'm still reeling from tonight's events, and my life feels fragile, held together only by my hopes and dreams.I let my eyes slide closed, soaking in every moment of what he is offering me because I know when the truth comes to light, he will never allow anyone I care about to be this close to me again.
“Darlin’, I haven’t seen you as an obligation once since the first night I laid eyes on you.I dream of you under me, begging.We’ve got too much to figure out and things that need to be talked about, and it’ll happen.I’m fucking done fighting.We’re going to happen.”His voice is rough with conviction.
I drop my chin to my chest, shaking it slightly.“Don’t say things like that.We both know that you don’t really believe that.You’re only saying all this because you’ve been gone for two weeks, came home to a party, and now there is a shitload of drama going on.Just leave it be.”
Blitz reaches up using the side of his knuckle to tilt my head up.“Look at me,” he growls.I slowly open my eyes, sucking in a sharp breath when I see the look in his.
“Every stupid fucking thing I’ve ever said about you being nothing more than an obligation was me trying to remind myself that we shouldn’t be together.It was a fucked-up situation, and I handled it all like a complete fucking asshole—”
Whatever else he was about to say is cut off by one of the brothers calling his name.To my complete fucking shock, Blitz places a soft kiss on my forehead before letting me go and making his way toward whoever called for him.I grip the side of the bar so hard my knuckles turn white.I try to take back control of my raging hormones and emotions.
“Charlie Doll, are you okay?”Satchel calls from his place at the bar.
I take one final deep inhale before spinning around with a smile on my face.“I’m good, Satchel.Thank you for asking.Do you need another drink?”
“Not right now,” he gives me a knowing look.
I just smile wider at him before making my way down the bar, checking with the brothers all sitting there.While listening to them all talk, I replace and refill drinks.I’m standing at the end of the bar talking with Ainsley and Tasia when Hermes coming out of church catches my eye.
“Prez says to get your ass in church,” he yells, and everyone starts moving.
A few of the brothers take drinks with them, and I start picking up and cleaning the ones left.
“Do you know what happened?”Ainsley asks.
I just shake my head.Tasia sighs, looking at her hands.“It’s not good.”
Throwing my bar towel over my shoulder, I turn and walk back over to them.“What happened?I was in the kitchen when all hell broke loose.”
“After Raider shoved me into the clubhouse and kissed me, I heard him say, and I quote,Those dumbass motherfuckers really believe that we won't fucking burn their club to the ground?And then he stormed off.I came over here to sit at the bar when not two minutes later Remedy and some really big guy rushed through the great room with an injured woman,” Tasia finishes.
With every word she says, the need to run gets so intense that I’m barely able to contain it.
“I hope that whoever she is, she's okay,” I whisper turning to finish cleaning the bar off.
“Me too.There has just been so much craziness going on.I’m just ready for things to get settled,” Ainsley snaps.
Chuckling to myself, I shake my head.“Sweetie, you’re sitting in the middle of an MC.Things will never settle down.They just go through moments of stillness before chaos falls over us.”
I say this without even realizing that we had gained a set of ill-willed whores.
“If you're so unhappy, you’re welcome to leave at any time,” Ivy snaps.
I spin around completely, done with her and her shit.“Last time, I was told you were a Club Bunny, and it’s your job to sit there, be a whore, and shut the fuck up.”
Ivy gasps as if what I’ve said is a lie.“You stupid bitch.When Blitz finally pulls his head out of his ass, I’m going to take great pride in watching them drop you on your ass.”
She no sooner gets those words out of her mouth than the church doors bang open, and Remedy is standing there like an archangel.“Charlie, we need you to go check on the woman.If she’s awake, make sure she doesn’t freak out because she's in a new place.Help her with whatever she needs.Twitch will be with you the entire time.”
