“I know. But I told you I’m on the pill, did you forget already? But if I wasn’t your ass would be toasty.”
“Shit, too bad.”
“Too bad what? That I’m on the pill?”
“Nope I was kind of hoping you were gonna get the flogger out.” Well I couldn’t’ disappoint him could I? I reached over and pulled open the nightstand drawer and pulled out my purple suede flogger. He’d never seen this one, I’d ordered it while he was away.
“You mean something like this?”
A low whistle followed by an angry grunt. “When did you get that? Playing when I’m not here?”
“Are you for real? Seriously? Haven’t we been over this already? You are the only person I’m with. When I’m not teaching I’m home with Teresa and mostly texting you, when the fuck would I have time?” He’s lucky I didn’t whack him good with the flogger, but this was for pleasure not pain. I wasn’t going to ruin it even if he was trying.
“Sorry. Fuck, I’m an ass. I just lost it for a moment. Michelle, you have no idea how much you mean to me. I’m always thinking about you, I lay in bed at night and picture you. Your hair, your eyes, your mouth.You’ve dug so deep into my heart if I lost you I’d die.”
Even while blinking my eyes to hold back the tears, I couldn’t think of a good way to respond. He’d never opened up this much before and his anger left almost as fast as it showed up. Climbing on the bed, I slid next to him and kissed him. Our tongues twining together, the taste of him filling my senses. His words echoed in my head and I knew it was the same for me. I don’t know when or how it happened but I couldn’t imagine life without him. The coldness that had once lived in my chest was no longer there, after all of these years I’d finally found a love to heal the pain.
Chapter Twenty-One
Flame…
Empty bed? It was my first thought as I opened my eyes. Where was Michelle? Then I heard the shower. Fuck yeah. It looked like morning wood and I were getting lucky. Or not. The water turned off and my phone beeped telling me I had a message at the same time. What the fuck? Sorry dude looks like we’re shit out of luck this morning. Now who the fuck was texting already. Shit, it’s eleven, I guess it’s not too early. Then I saw the name. Good bye hard-on. Fuck me running.
Ashley:“Baby. I’m in the lobby. Come down and talk 2 me or I’ll come up.”
What the fuck was her problem? Fucking whore, she only wanted me now for the money. Did she really think I was going to fall for this shit twice?
Me: “Go the fuck away. I told you I don’t want anything to do with you.”
Ashley: “No. If you don’t come down I’m coming up.”
Me: “Like fuck you will. You don’t know the room.”
Ashley: “You know I can get someone to give it to me. Have you forgotten my talents?”
Fucking bitch. She’d do it too. I’d seen her work her body enough to know it wouldn’t be hard at all. Michelle didn’t need this bitch in her face.
“What’s wrong?”
Not expecting the question, I almost dropped the phone. Actually I wanted to throw it against the wall but it wouldn’t accomplish anything. “Nothing babe.”
“Bull. You’re pissed off. What happened?”
I didn’t have much choice I had to tell her. We’d promised to never lie, and not telling her was the same thing, right? Or was it? I’d be saving her aggravation. But she’d kick my ass if she found out. Fuck, fuck, fuck. “It’s Ashley.” As soon as the words were out of my mouth I was sorry.
“What does she want?”
“I don’t know. She’s here, downstairs I mean. She says she needs to talk to me.”
Michelle grabbed her brush and started dragging it through her hair. I thought she was going to be bald she pulled on it so hard. Damn. Last night was so good, I didn’t want it to all go to shit now.
“I guess you need to go talk to her then.”
“I told her no.” She raised her eyebrows and put the brush down.
“Baby, it’s okay. It really is.”
“No it’s fuckin’ not. I was on my way to meet you in the shower and now she’s fucked up everything and she’s not in my life anymore. Why the fuck did she show back up?”
