It’s ridiculous. I never thought I could feel this obsessed over someone. That’s when I keep reminding myself that I shouldn’t become reliant on it. If what we have is taken away, I don’t want to be back to square one—I want to use his company and affections to better myself, not solve my problems.
As fated mates, we’re destined to spend the rest of eternity together. But I don’t know how we’re meant to do that with Caleb’s father lurking around. I haven’t seen him in a while, not since the party months ago, and it’s probably for the best.
I haven’t asked Caleb about it because he seems stressed as it is, and at this point, ignorance is bliss. I don’t want anything to burst the bubble that we’ve built. I’ll live in my delusional world forever.
When I step into the kitchen, I find Kayleigh sitting at the island, tapping away on her laptop. The second she sees me, her eyes light up. “Morning, Evan.”
“Hey, Kayleigh,” I say as I open the fridge and remove the apple juice. “Are you working?”
She hums. “Yeah, just a little research.”
“Fun.”
“I wish,” she snorts.
“Where’s Kayden?”
“Double-checking the perimeter or something.” She waves a hand, not taking her eyes off her laptop. “I don’t really know.”
My lips lift into a smile as I perch on the stool opposite her. We sit in silence as I listen to her tap on her keyboard. I run a hand through my hair before scratching the crown.
Kayleigh isn’t the type of person to judge, and I know anything I say to her she’ll keep to herself, even if it’s mortifying as hell.
There’s nothing I want more than to thank Caleb for all his time and effort in our training, but the only issue is that I’m embarrassingly inexperienced.
Sure, I’ve looked on Google, but they all say different things, and I don’t want to do it wrong.
“Kayleigh…” I trail off. “Can I ask you something?”
Her blue eyes flick up from her laptop as she rests her elbows on the ledge of the island. “Sure thing, what’s up?”
“This is honestly embarrassing." I laugh hesitantly. “There’s no way I could ask Ava and look at Jaxon the same, or anyone else in the pack for that matter.”
I suck in a breath and try to rid my thoughts of that image before it festers.
“Ask what?”
“How do you—” I clear my throat and glance over my shoulder to make sure we’re completely alone. “H-how do you give a blowjob?”
My cheeks burn like hell the second the words leave my lips.
Her mouth falls open at my question before she releases a soft squeal. “Are you dating someone?”
I half-shrug. “I guess.”
“Do you trust this person?”
“Yeah.”
Kayleigh stares at me for a long moment, her lips swishing from side to side. “Okay,” she says as she slaps the counter and stands up.
I watch as she walks across the kitchen, towards the fruit bowl on the side, before picking up two bananas. “Well…there’s no point trying to explain it to you. We might as well practice,” she says with a smirk.
“What?” I squeak. “Are we putting them in our mouths?”
“I’ll wash them first and grab some condoms. I wouldn’t ask you to do something so unsanitary.”
When she returns with two foil packets, she grabs the bananas, rinses them under the tap, and hands me one.
