“Why?”
“Because I’ll get used to it.”
Caleb’s breath tickles my neck. “Then I see no problem.”
My forehead hurts as I frown. I twist my head an inch to look up at him. Our eyes meet, and I tremble at the sincerity behind his gaze. “I really thought you didn’t want this.”
Caleb’s eyes tighten. “This is all I’ve wanted,” he confesses. “I thought I could stay away, but I can’t. Not when I look at you, and I see my entire future.”
My eyes burn at his words. “Would things have been easier if you were mated to a woman instead?”
“What?”
“Because of your father, and?—”
“I don’t want a woman. I’veneverwanted a woman,” he mumbles into the curve of my neck, and I shudder. “I’ve been waiting for you, and you only.”
I close my eyes in contentment. “But it still would have been easier.”
“And I would have been incredibly unhappy.”
“Has it always only been men?”
Caleb nods. “Always.”
My lips curl subtly. “Me, too.”
He continues to hold me, and I enjoy the warmth of his large body.
“H-have you been with many men?” I ask curiously.
Caleb flicks his eyes between mine. “A few,” he admits, and it floods me with jealousy. “Mostly when I was younger and figuring out my sexuality.”
“And none since me?”
He frowns instantly. “No, of course not. None since a while before you.”
“Why?”
“They weren’t fulfilling,” he says simply. “I knew it would never be my forever.”
My rattling heart settles at his confession. “I wish we had met under better circumstances.”
“I know,” he whispers before pressing another kiss to my throat.
I sigh with satisfaction.
“Do you like it when I touch you?” he whispers heavily.
My throat tightens as I nod, unable to even contemplate lying. I don’t like it. I love it. I crave it. I dream of it.
“Don’t think I’ve forgotten about the night I felt you with your fingers deep inside yourself,” he rasps before grazing his teeth along my pulse. “It’s like you wanted to torture me.”
A gasp falls from my lips. “I-I can’t believe you just said that.”
His laugh vibrates my entire body. “And I meant what I said, too. Every last word.”
“Goddess,” I cry out as his hand slides down my torso.
