“I heard. You going?”
“Yeah, we’re going.” He uses his fork to gesture between himself and JJ. “Are you coming?”
I glance at my brother and then at JJ, who is staring at me hopefully. “Sure. Should be fun.”
“How lovely for you all,” my mum says gleefully. “So glad you’re all getting along.”
My face heats. Yeah, getting along really well with Finn’s best friend.
“Where’s Dad?” Finn asks.
“Out playing pickleball, he’ll be back later.”
Once we’re done with dinner, we clean up, and soon after, I head to bed. I’m exhausted after last night.
As soon as I’m in my bed and in my pyjamas, I scroll through my phone. It buzzes in my hand, and JJ’s name pops up at the top of the screen. My heart misses a beat when I click on the text instantly.
JJ:
Thinking of me?
Ivy:
Why, are you thinking of me?
JJ:
Always.
I shamelessly squeeze my legs together at that one word. Desperate for a bit of pressure because now all I can think of is the way I came around JJ over and over again.
Ivy:
Will I see you at the fair on Saturday?
JJ:
Yeah, I hope so.
I chew on my lip for a moment, my thumbs hovering over the screen. The fair will be a good time to tell him. It’s the closest opportunity I have to being alone with him this weekend. I can’t keep this to myself anymore. I want him to know.
A part of me believes he deserves to know. Especially if he decides he doesn’t want my extra baggage. I can’t trap him into this. He should know how fucked up I’ve been since.
Ivy:
Yeah. I want to tell you something. When we’re there.
JJ:
Okay… good or bad?
Ivy:
Neither? Meet me at the Ferris wheel, that way we won’t be distracted.
JJ:
Can we at least kiss at the top?
