JJ exhales a low and throaty laugh, which spreads warmth through my entire soul. “True.” He nods, a glint of arousal playing in his eyes before kissing my chin again. “You sure you’re okay?”
“I feel safe with you,” I blurt.
JJ’s hand stills on my bare back, and the room turns silent for a moment. “And I’d be an entire failure if you didn’t.”
I release a quiet sigh. The scar over my chest begins to throb, and I know my body is trying to tell me something. I trust JJ, of course I do. I want to open up and tell him everything that happened with Ben. Why I am the way I am, and my stupid insecurities that come along with my trauma. But I don’t want anything to ruin this moment.
My head shifts on his chest, and I rest my chin on his muscly shoulder. JJ looks down at me and brushes back my hair with his fingers, over and over. “I know you’re waiting for me to talk about my past,” I whisper.
JJ’s brows crease. “I’m not entitled to anything, Ivy,” he states simply. “If you want to tell me, then I’m ready to listen, but if you don’t, then that’s your decision. Not mine.”
“I want to tell you.” I flick my eyes down to the curve of his neck and along his collarbone. “I want to share that part of my life with you because I trust you. I think it will help you understand why I’ve been putting this off, and why I think the way I do.”
He places his hand under my chin and tilts slowly, our eyes meet, and I melt at the security and comfort that lies there. “Even so.” He shrugs lightly. “If you’re not ready, then you’re not ready. I’m still going to be here.”
“I’m almost ready,” I admit. “But after last night, my head is a little clouded with other thoughts.”
JJ’s other arm snakes around my back, and he hugs me close, our hearts pounding in unison. “Then I’ll be here to listen when you are.”
When I take a breath this time, it’s like a thousand tonnes have fallen off my shoulders, giving me a chance to stand tall. I might not have told him what happened, but openly declaring I want to, that is a step I never thought I’d take.
I haven’t spoken about it in years. Only to my therapist.
JJ takes my hand and twists my palm towards him before kissing the centre of it. Butterflies flicker across my sternum and down to my stomach at the soft gesture. I can’t take my eyes off him. He’s so effortlessly handsome, I can’t believe he’s here inmybed.
“Is this good enough proof that I want you?” I plead before he places my hand down in the middle of his chest. “And that I’m ready to try.”
JJ’s eyes light up and simmer as he nods. “Kiss me.”
I swallow back the tight lump in my throat. How am I nervous to kiss him when he was deep inside me last night? Myeyes flick down to his lips, and I’m not surprised to find a proud smirk lying there. He knows exactly how he affects me and he’s living up to every moment.
I slowly shuffle upwards, our lips hovering over one another’s. He glances down at my mouth, still smirking, and my head spins. His hands glide up my bare legs and ass before he grabs my waist and forces me to straddle him.
I gasp when my core touches his cock. He’s not wearing any clothes either. He’s hard and warm and I bite my lip as it rolls down the centre of my pussy. I shudder, and he clasps the back of my head with his hand. “You’re hard.”
He’s staring at me with dark, hooded eyes, breathing heavier than before. “That’s a given when I’m around you.”
My lips tremble at his words. Our mouths brush, and I clasp the side of his jaw. The kiss is instantly deepened as he dips his tongue inside my mouth and bites down on my bottom lip. I hiss and he smiles, twisting his head to plunge his tongue deeper.
Somehow, I find my hips rocking against him, planting his cock against his stomach as I slide up and down his length. What the fuck am I doing? I don’t even know, but I love it.
God, I love it so much.
“JJ—” I moan into his mouth when my clit grows bigger.
“Holy fuck,” he groans into the kiss and fists my hair.
I glance down as JJ’s fingers knead into the flesh on my thigh with one hand. His eyes are dark like onyx, not a speck of blue in sight. “Fuck, princess,” he rasps. “That’s it. Use me. Make yourself come all over me.”
Tears swell in my eyes as I rock harder, faster. My clit grazes the ridge of his tip and I clench my core, my stomach,everything. “Oh fuck,” we exhale at the same time as he stares at me with hungry eyes.
“Come on, Ivy. Don’t you want to come for me? I know you want to,” he grumbles darkly as I grind harder.
My hand latches onto the base of his throat, and I pin his neck down to the bed as his cock twitches against my pussy. “I want you to come,” I whisper breathlessly. “I want you to come for me, too.”
JJ’s eyes flare up at me as he tightens his fingers in my hair, both of us whimpering and groaning. “Princess,” he says through gritted teeth. “You’re playing a dangerous game.”
My entire body jitters as I rock forward again. “Then come for me,” I gasp as I roll over his tip and back again, and we both release a moan. “Oh god, I’m close.”
