“I know you’re not.” He presses the button for the lift. “But I don’t think you should be alone, either.”
I turn to look at him, my eyes soften. There is so much I could say, but I just give a subtle nod. We ride the lift in silence, and I am grateful to be tucked behind the door of my suite.
“I don’t know about you, but I need a drink,” he calls out. “Oh wait, I can’t, I need to drive at two hundred miles an hour tomorrow.”
I scoff as I dump the bag by the sofa and walk towards the floor-to-ceiling window overlooking the track.
“Do you want a coffee?” His voice echoes in the suite, and I hold my thumb up.
Looking around, all of her stuff is gone. I did a good job of fucking that up.
Maybe it needed to happen. We tried. I can’t cope with a relationship whilst I am working. It doesn’t mix well. Like oil and water, desperately trying to stay together but eventually, one of us sinks.
The hollow ache in my chest doesn’t help, it’s like a constant reminder of her. Nora was right. I should never have crossed the line; this is exactly the reason she put a contract into place.
Shaking my head at my thoughts, I jump when Kai grips my shoulder and passes me a black coffee.
“I can’t wait for summer break,” I mutter, curling my fingers around the mug.
“What are you thinking of doing?” he asks.
I shrug. “Not sure now. I wanted to take Athena away somewhere but…” I trail off and I feel nausea swirl in my stomach.
“Me and a few of the boys are going away to Marbella if you fancy it?” His eyes burn into mine
“When you leaving?”
“August first.”
I consider it for a moment before I think fuck it. “Count me in.”
I’m sitting alonewith my thoughts. Kai left a couple of hours ago after I promised him that I was okay. We ate dinner, watched the highlights—which were focused on my outburst— and then I told him I needed to sleep the mood off.
Now, it’s past midnight and I am wired. And not in a good way.
I debate messaging Dane. A late-night work out normally helps, but I fear that even that won’t do a thing. Letting my head fall back, I finally reach for my phone and turn it on. I turned it off after the press meeting. It takes a minute to load up, but once it does, the notifications ping in.
I scowl at the drivers’ chat. There are only a few of us in there and I am kind of dreading reading their messages. There’s multiple notifications from Nora and my dad, I scoff when I see Anaïs name a few times.
“Fuck,” I sigh, clicking on the group chat.
Arden RedForce
Holy shit balls… Royce… what the hell man?
Ajax Ruinous
You blew up, are you good?
Kai Ex
He’ll be fine. I’ll go find him after press.
Cowan – Prick
Man, I know we don’t see eye to eye… but I hope you’re okay. Always here if you want to talk.
Kai Ex
