I don’t.
I want to make him come with my mouth. I want to watch him fall apart, knowing I’m the one who did it. I tease him with my nails while I speed up, letting my tongue run along his shaft as I slide my mouth up and down the length of him.
My name is a breathy cry on his lips when he lets go. The wet heat of him hits the back of my throat, but I don’t stop. I keep working him, feeling him pulse in my mouth as his body shakes and his breathing turns ragged. My lips stay locked around him until I feel his body relax as he starts to grow soft. His fingers loosen in my hair, gently rubbing away the sting from the tight grip he’d had on me. I close my eyes, enjoying the sensation.
“Van,” he says, and when I open my eyes to meet his, he gives me one of his sweet smiles. “I want you to always remember that I told you I love you before I knew how amazing your mouth would feel.”
I laugh, even though he’s still inside me, and when I pull back, I take the time to give him a kiss before I lean in and cuddle against him. He wraps his arms around me, pulling me closer.
“I hope that lived up to any fantasies you may have had,” I say. “I promise I’ll get better at it.”
“I don’t see how in the hell that’s possible.”
I smile at the lazy sound of his voice and feel an odd sense of pride. I did this. I’m the one who made him feel like this, and I’m the only one who ever will. I’ve never been possessive before, but I am with him.
I lift my head and lean in so I can kiss his neck. “Can I tell you something?” I ask.
“Anything,” he quickly says.
I keep my lips close to his skin when I say, “I don’t ever want you to know what it feels like to be with someone else. I want you to just know me.”
He cups my head, pulling back just enough so we’re almost face to face. “I promise you will be the only woman I ever knowlike this.” His grey eyes study mine, and I know he’s telling the truth. “That’s the easiest promise I’ve ever made to anyone, because I don’t want anyone but you.”
I smile and kiss him. He deepens it, not caring that I taste like him, and when he pulls back with a soft laugh, I look down to see that he’s already growing hard again.
“That was fast,” I say. “I’m in for a really fun weekend.”
“You and me both,” he says. “I may spend all four days inside your body, one way or another.”
I let my mind imagine different scenarios while he tucks himself away and we both get dressed. When he’s standing next to me again, he brings me close and says, “I want the same promise from you. I can’t share you, not now, not ever.” His thumb runs along my mouth again. “The only cock to ever spread these pretty lips,” he slides his hand down and cups me in a possessive grip that my body immediately loves and responds to, “or these, better be mine.”
“Deal,” I quickly say. “I don’t want anyone but you, Niki. I could never give myself to anyone else.”
“Thank you,” he says, and it’s so sweet and so very him that all I can do is pull him closer and kiss him, putting all the love I feel for him into it.
By the time we leave my childhood bedroom, we’ve successfully surpassed all my teenage fantasies and imprinted the room with memories that will always make me smile when I think about it and ones I’ll never forget.
We stop in the kitchen and get ourselves some pie, and when we join my parents in the living room, they’re kind enough to not mention our long absence.
Niki and I stay for another hour visiting with them, and I can tell that he really likes them, that he’s not just hanging out here because he knows it means a lot to me. He laughs at my dad’s corny jokes and then surprises me by telling a few of his own,and then he asks about my mom’s sorority days, and she’s more than happy to fill him in on all the fun she had during her years there.
By the time we get ready to leave, I think my parents are in love with him almost as much as I am. Once we’re back in his car, after having promised to visit again soon and then after being given an enormous amount of leftovers, he turns to me before starting the engine.
“I really love your family, Van.”
“They really love you, too.”
“I’m glad they do. I was worried they wouldn’t.” He starts the car and backs out of the driveway while he says, “We’ll have to figure out a way to make this work. I don’t want to scare them with the whole Bratva thing, but I’m not sure how long before they start asking questions.”
“We’ll come up with something,” I tell him, resting my hand on his thigh while he drives us out of the neighborhood I grew up in. “I’m not giving you up, so we’ll find a way to make it all work.”
“Giving you up isn’t an option,” he says. “That’s not even on the fucking table.”
“Glad to hear we’re in agreement.” I look out the window and stifle a yawn. “I wish it was tomorrow night already.”
“Me, too, but you only have one day of classes left. I’ll be waiting outside to pick you up, and then I’m stealing you for four days. I might keep you naked for all of them.”
“Oh, you’re definitely going to be naked for all of them,” I tell him. He laughs like I’m joking, but I’m definitely not. The idea of seeing Niki naked is what’s kept me motivated to work ahead in all my classes. I’m not about to give up on that dream.
