I hear a gasp from Raegan, and I finally have my clothes situated and brain working properly after my woman just sucked out all my cognitive thoughts and speech.
“Get the fuck out!” I boom, making both women jump.
“But—” the bitch starts.
“OUT!”
Laura flees from the room, and I rush over to close the door locking it. Raegan hasn’t moved from her spot, but now she is staring down at the floor with her arms crossed over her body. I step over to reach for her, but she moves back.
“Babe—”
“Guess I’m not so special after all,” she murmurs barely above a whisper. She shakes her head like she’s ridding something then peers up at me. I can see the hurt in her eyes as she puts on a brave face, but I see it.
“I have no idea what she?—”
“I’m going home now,” she states in a no nonsense tone then breaks our eye contact. She moves to pick up her bag from the desk. Her movements are jerky and stiff.
I grab her so that my front is resting against her back, to stop her movements. Her body is rigid in my arms, and I don’t like it.
“Raegan, we aren’t going anywhere until we talk about what just went down.” I place my chin on her shoulder right by her ear.
I want her to be able to hear everything I’m about to say to her.
“You have to know that I had a past before you, hell, I can’t remember all of it myself. But the moment I decided that you were it for me, I haven’t touched another woman. Only you. I tried to stay away but couldn’t. The night I dropped you off at your car and said that we should call it a day, I came back here and tried to fuck one of the club whores but couldn’t. I had one of them come to my room, but couldn’t enjoy it when I looked at her and she wasn’t you. I sent her away, went in the shower, and pictured you while I jacked off in there.”
I might as well get it all out there so that we can move past this.
She turns around to face me.
“So, you didn’t do anything with her that night?”
“She was sucking my dick, but all I could think about was you. I tried to fuck her but your face and body from our night up in South Dakota were all that I saw, so I stopped it. I made her leave and that was it.”
“Sorry to ruin your night,” she sarcastically says and moves to step out of my hold. “You were the one who turned me down. Told me that this wasn’t happening. Why are you even messing with me when you have that on tap?” She waves her hand towards the door that leads out to the bar where everyone is gathered.
“You can’t punish me for something that happened before we were together. I didn’t think we could be like this,” I argue. “They all meant nothing. Just a way to relieve stress and get off.” I bend my knees down a bit to look her right in the eyes. “I’ve never felt the way I did with them like I do with you. So, yes you are special to me in every way.”
She scrubs her face with her hands and lets out a long sigh.
“I know,” she admits in a defeated tone. “I just…I want to be with someone who only wants to be with me. Not have others on the side. I don’t want to be put in a position where I have to question your loyalty to me.”
I know she’s thinking about what happened with Havoc and Debbie.
“Raegan, I only want to be with you. Only you. Not one of those women in that room in there can hold a candle to you so why would I want anything other than the best cookie a woman has to offer,” I joke about what she calls her pussy. It earns me a small giggle, and I feel relieved when the tension from her body relaxes. “Have I been with some of them out there? Yes, but I’ve got you now and that’s all I need, okay?” I tell her. “And I don’t have any idea what she’s talking about my nightly routine, but some of the women aren’t above trying to make power plays with each other if they think they’ll get a patch from one of the brothers.”
“This lifestyle is a little out of my element here,” she says crossing her arms back over her chest reminding me that she’s in her tight little outfit.
“Don’t worry about that, babe, my brothers are going to make sure you fit in here just fine. As for the whores, they’ll leave you alone once they see you stuck to my side or else they’ll find themselves out on their asses,” I tell her but then turn my face serious. “You have my loyalty, Raegan.”
She takes a hot second to think about what I just confessed to her, but when she nods her head, I pull her into a hug which she returns then kiss the top of her head.
“Wildcat, I need to know that you trust me. I can’t have someone who thinks the worst of me when situations come up.”
She pulls back and gazes right into my eyes.
“I trust you, Kane. I think we both have some learning to do when it comes to relationships.” Her eyes show her sincerity.
“Good, now let’s get home so I can show that cookie some attention.”
