Am I ready for that type of affection from him? I feel like we’re closing a chapter on our past and starting the next one in our lives but in a different relationship type of way.
“Sure, but watch your hands,” I say firmly giving him a challenging raised eyebrow. Leave it to Havoc to try to grope me one last time while my defenses are down.
He gives a hearty laugh then engulfs me with his arms. He buries his head into my hair, and I rest my chin on his shoulder with my arms around his waist. Just as I’m about to pull away we hear a throat being cleared. While releasing each other, I see a furious Kane at the front of Havoc’s bike. If looks could kill, we’d both be six feet under.
“Church! Now, VP!” Kane seethes at Havoc. Jeez, what’s his problem?
Havoc nods and then turns to me.
“Thanks for today, Raegan. We’ll talk later.”
“Bye, Havoc.”
Havoc walks over to the clubhouse doors and when the doors are securely closed with him behind it, Kane goes to grab me. He’s pulling me flush to his body his grip is almost painful.
“If I didn’t have to be in church in less than five minutes, I would bend you over that bike and fuck the sass right out of you. I know what you’re doing, Raegan, and it’s working.”
“What are you talking about, Kane?”
“That little stunt earlier when you were leaving on the back of his bike. And then hanging all over Havoc just now.”
“You’re crazy, I wasn’t hanging all over him. He asked for a hug, and I let him have one. Not that it’s any of your business, but we were just closing a chapter in our lives. Yes, I was mad earlier and shouldn’t have done that, it was childish. I didn’t like the way you spoke to me. I know it was wrong, and I’m sorry for that, but that hug was about closure and nothing more.”
I jerk, ripping my arms out of his grip, and take a step back.
“That’s not what it looked like to me. It looked like if I hadn’t interrupted things would’ve gotten a lot heavier. Tell me, was I just a warm body until you made nice with Havoc?”
What is he going on about? I’d never get back with Havoc even if Kane and I don’t work out. This fool has some nerve saying all of this to me.
“Are you on drugs right now? I can’t believe you’d say that to me after what we shared last night!” I practically yell out. This is nuts, and I’m not going to stand here and listen anymore to this bullshit. “Fuck you, Kane! Call me when you grow the fuck up. Or don’t for that matter.”
I storm past him on my way to my car. How dare he say that to me. He knew I was meeting with Havoc and we were hashing out our past. I hear him yelling my name behind me, but he hesitated too long, and I’m already closing my car door. Quickly, I’m pressing the power button to start my car and putting the shaft in gear, locking the doors just as he tries to tear open the door.
As he bangs on my window, he’s yelling, “Open the fucking door, Raegan!”
Flipping him off, I move my foot from the brake to the gas pedal going in reverse. Without checking my mirrors, I accelerate back then switch gear and roar out of the lot. Thank god the gates are open, and I can leave this shithole place. I knew it was a bad idea to ever step foot back in this town again.
Fuck!
I watch her car leave the compound, and I want to kick the shit out of myself. Why did I say those things to her? I couldn’t stop the rage building inside me. Seeing her with someone else has me all jacked up. But seeing her snuggled up with her ex, who she had a real relationship for a year, has me doing things that I’d never thought I’d do. Never have I wanted to harm a brother before, and now that Raegan is in my life I can’t stop these feelings from boiling over every time she’s around other men.
This war going on with the Vipers has me making some hard decisions that will affect each of my brothers, and could possible get any one of us killed. Never have we approached the idea of taking out an entire MC before. There’s a lot to consider to make sure we don’t see our asses in a jail cell when all the dust settles. After finding the dead prospect on our lot, we met up for Church and decided to bring another chapter and call some of the Nomads in to help us out. Nomads are patched brothers who don’t have a home chapter and roam wherever their needed. We don’t have the manpower that the Vipers have created over the last several months and need to make a strong front. We need more bodies and very capable men who know how to take out others. They brought this blood to our front door, and if don’t get in front of this, then there will be more bloodshed that will spill out on the streets of Sweetwater where innocent people could get hurt.
The meeting at church we’re about to have is whether or not to do the protection run next week. We also want to promote a few of the prospects who are nearly done with their time. We need more bodies, and I think a good way is to patch them over.
Shit, I should go after Raegan. She shouldn’t be driving right now. I could see how my words upset her. She was hurt and I caused that.
Fuck.
Moving across the lot and over to my bike, I swing a leg over, just as Reaper comes out of the clubhouse.
“Prez, we having church or what?” he asks then lights a smoke.
Shaking my head to get a clear head on my shoulders, I take a pause. I can’t leave now, we’ve club business and as much as I want to go to her and tell her I’m sorry, the club will always come first. Getting back off the bike I nod to Reaper.
“Yeah, let’s do this.”
I’ll make this the shortest meeting ever, and then I’ll go find her. We’ve been together for twenty-four hours, and I’m already screwing things up.
