Ugh! Fine.
I make an account using some random burner name because no way in hell I’m showing up as myself for her to block. Once I’m in, her live comes up. She did mention streaming at night now that I think about it.
She’s sitting cross-legged in her gaming chair, cute cat-eared headphones holding back her mane.
Tonight, she’s working on some mechanics for her game, but she promised a playthrough of‘Alice: Madness Returns’,then maybe she’ll start ‘South of Midnight’.
I’m glad I caught this.
Her chat is moving nonstop and people love her.
I can see why.
She’s… everything.
Beautiful.
Magnetic.
Authentic.
Charming.
Energetic.
And most importantly,passionate.
Where was this energy when I was in her bed?
There’s a donation button at the bottom of the screen.‘Help support the channel.’
I shouldn’t. I really shouldn’t.
I’m not even sure I belong in here, and if she even finds out I’m watching her like this, she’d block me out of her life completely. I know her. She hates me getting too close.
But watching her in her element does it for me.
I click the button and type in £5000. Then, I set it to anonymous before hitting confirm.
A notification pops on her screen instantly.
ANONYMOUS DONATED £5000.
Her head jerks back. “What?”
She leans toward the screen, squinting. “One thousand? As in… real pounds?British pounds?!”
She sits back, hands on her head, laughing in disbelief.
“Oh my God! Anonymous, who are you?! Why you sending so much money?” She pauses. “Wait… is the queen watching my stream? Lizzie, is that you?”
I laugh—actually laugh—into my empty room.
I sentanother £5000 with the words: SHE’S DEAD GENIUS.
Her chat goes wild.She shakes her head, smiling softer now, talking to the camera. “Well… thank you, whoever you are. That’s mad generous. Actually I wanna thank all of you honestly because… getting nominated seven times in the Game Awards? As a debut indie company? A Black woman-owned indie gaming company? I swear I screamed for hours when the nominees dropped. Y’all have me up against gaming companies that raised me! I’m all the way gassed. Fuck! I want it all! But, can you imagine what it would feel like to win Best Debut?”
I immediately pull up the Game Awards page and search the nominations. She’s nominated for:
