“Sin.”
I don’t know what is wrong with me. Usually I can ignore how much I hate that these two are headed toward the future together. I would never try to keep Gael from happiness, I would never get between him and his lover, I would never?—
“Sin!”
Phin’s whisper pulls me out of my spiraling thoughts.
“Phin?” I didn’t mean to wake him, and I’m not sure how I did.
“You are crushing me.” He flexes his entire body, showing me that I’ve basically strangled him with my arms and legs.
I release the tension holding him to me and lift the leg I slung over his hips and tuck it behind his knees again. I don’t even remember doing that. “I apologize,” I whisper, running a soothing hand over his furry chest. “I must’ve been having a nightmare.”
He grunts and presses his naked ass into my cock. “You can stick it in, if you want,” he murmurs with a sleepy sigh.
Why would I?—
He rubs his ass on my cock again, finally making me aware of how hard I am. When did that happen?
“I can’t reach the condoms,” I murmur.What is wrong with me?
“You don’t need one,” he mumbles, reaching back to notch my cock at his entrance.
“Lube,” I protest because I’ve never gone without a sleeve, and I’m not planning on doing that without Gael.
“I’m slick alread?—”
I grab his wrist and pull my cock out of his grip. “No. Go back to sleep, Phin.”
Phin lets me put his arm back around Gael, and gives up his quest for something in his ass. In less than a minute he’s softlysnoring again. I’m not even sure if he was fully awake, and it doesn’t matter.
Quietly I roll out of bed, padding down the hall. I grab a blanket from the linen closet on the way to the couch, and settle in, closing my eyes against all the frustration living inside me.
“Going raw? Who does that?” I grumbled, rolling onto my side. “Fucker.”
I’m not going to fuck him raw. Not without Gael. He’s not even mine.
When They Were Seven
Sin
“What’s that?” Gael asks, popping up over my shoulder.
“They got me aGameboyfor my birthday,” I reply, showing him my new present.
“That’s so cool. I always wanted one of those. Why didn’t you have a party? I would have come.”
“They said it’s because my birthday is during the summer so none of my friends would come. You want it?” I offer him theGameboy, turning so I can see if he smiles or not.
He does. It always feels like Christmas with him around so I don’t feel like I’ve lost anything when he takes my present from my hands. “We can share it, Caysin. You can have it at your place and then I can have it at mine and we can just take turns!”
“Ok.” That sounds exactly like how it should be with me and him.
Present Day
Phineas
“You’ve been busy.” This is how my grandfather greets me as I sit down at the table in the diner where he summoned me to join him for breakfast.
