“Sup, lil’ man, you at the crib today?”
He shook his head.
“I didn’t have the energy to take him to school. And I wanted him to go because he has a field trip to the rink.”
I had some things to do so I couldn’t do the trip, but I’ll send security with him.
I sent off a message to meet me at the school.
“Then, I got him. Let me get you situated then I’ll drop him off. Cool, Levi?”
“Yes,” he said with a smile.
I placed him down and headed to the kitchen where I made her a cup of tea, chopped up some oranges, and boiled soup that I brought her yesterday. She was stacked with everything she needed.
“Anything you want him to wear?”
“Rayzor, he can stay with me. I’m not trying to be a bother.”
“Don’t worry about it. Come on, lil’ man.”
Going into his room, Levi was a blessed kid. I don’t even remember having half the shit he did at his age. He had his own room with games, a desk, bed big enough to grow in, and toys everywhere. Eris loved her son and showed love in all forms. It made me miss my momma. It also made it a reality that if I had kids, they wouldn’t have grandparents. That shit always sends pressure to my chest thinking about it.
I got Levi dressed and hygiene ready before we went back to his Eris’s room. She was knocked out. I kissed her and let him give her a kiss that woke her up.
“Okay, Mommy, we’re leaving.”
“Alright, baby. Sorry, baby, you know momma’s sick.”
“It’s okay. Rayzor will take care of you when he gets back, okay?” He rubbed her cheek.
“Okay, momma’s baby.” She smiled.
“I’ll be right back, aiight?”
“Thank you, baby. I really didn’t have the energy.”
“You ain’t gotta apologize. It’s nothing.”
Grabbing her keys instead of taking my truck because of the car seat, I loaded him up with his bookbag and we rode out listening to some kid’s music. I kept stealing glances back at him, smiling, bobbing my head.
“Rayzor,” he called out.
I killed the volume on the music a bit.
“Sup, Levi?”
“Do you like my mommy?”
I chuckled. “Yeah, lil’ man, I do. Is that cool with you?”
He put his lil’ finger up to his chin and looked up like he was thinking. “I think so.”
“Yeah, Levi. I like your mom’s. She’s a good woman, and if it’s cool with you, I just wanna make her happy.”
Then it clicked that I was talking to four-year old about my relationship.
That shit made me feel weird. The women that I’ve talked to in the past, we don’t get to the stage of me chopping it up with their kids. But with Eris, it came naturally. I didn’t feel like I had to be this perfect person around them. I made it a mission to be vigilant, tone down some of my mannerisms and always show respect for Eris in their presence.
