enough for me to realize that I don’t understand
anything about life, that I’ve probably buried it
inside me somewhere, it’s in some kind of deep
ditch at least ten meters down, where all dark souls
like mine go to be buried in a common grave.
And for what? Why would I have done this? To
distance myself from any idea of responsibility, the
possibility to love. To escape from life itself and
hide from myself and from the world.
And what’s it all been for?
Thirty years thrown down the toilet for a pair of
deep sweet eyes. Because that’s what she is, she’s
sincere, and naive, and … because she is who she
is.
The song ends and we go straight into the next
number, but Erin isn’t there anymore, she ran out
in tears, leaving Rain speechless standing there.
And leaving me without a piece of my heart.
11
Erin
It’s Thursday evening and the guys are ready to
play a few songs. They do it every Thursday night,
because there’s enough people there to listen to
them but not so many that they’re needed behind
the counter or waiting tables.
Patrick is in a bad mood and has been avoiding
me all night and has been growling at everyone
else including friends and clients.
I didn’t have the courage to get close; I
understand that telling me those things must have
