hear my own heartbeat.
Then I turn and walk away quickly, to avoid the
knowledge that the thing I’ve been running from
my whole life grabs me and throws me against the
wall. That it drags me towards the unknown and
into something terrible that could only hurt me.
And hurt her.
5
Erin
“So, how’d it go yesterday?” Rain asks me.
“I got my stuff and came back here.”
“Was Patrick helpful to you?”
“Uhm-mmm,” I murmur, hiding behind a cup of
tea.
“Have you thought about what to do?”
Of course I’ve thought about it. That’s all I do
all day long is think about it.
I’m still studying, I’ve got to graduate and apply
for my PhD. Follow in my father’s footsteps. I had
a lot of plans and now everything’s coming
undone.
“I don’t know what to do, Rain,” I confess,
setting down the cup of tea on the table and curling
up on the couch. “I didn’t have this in mind for
myself.”
“I know, dear, but it’s happened, you can’t
pretend that it didn’t or avoid the unavoidable. You
have to make a decision, and quickly.”
“I don’t think I’m able to.” I sigh and the words
that come out of my mouth weigh like a boulder
